Sick of Suffering in Silence

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Sick of Suffering in Silence

MARCH 19, 2012 ~ By Jane Akre    A story before I tell this story.  I was commissioned to write a 2,100 word piece for the Chicago-based magazine “In These Times.”  I had pitched the long-time editor and he said they were very interested. Great I thought. The money wasn’t much but the exposure for an important issue is priceless. Besides, how the media works is when one outlet does a story they play follow the leader and others pick it up.  So I did the nifty story, submitted it on time. This pm the editor said he noticed two lawyers are linked to the site so they can’t pickup the story, it’s a conflict of interest.

I understand and often feel the same way. The public doesn’t think journalists have standards but there are very strict standards for the best journos and I believe he is very good.  But I insisted, I’ve flown myself to the FDA hearings, I’ve been following the issue since 2009 and am truly interested in the topic and feel it’s an important story of our time. I’m not soliciting for the attorneys, they just offer some support! Do I have to take a vow of poverty to be a journalist? The New York Times takes ads for BMW, does that mean there is a conflict? I was getting a bit flustered and I’m afraid it showed.

It fell on deaf ears – any association with lawyers is a conflict. Some other journalist will have to do the story.  Maybe they could interview you, he said.  Right.

Sometimes you can’t catch a break.  Anyway here is the story I did. Too bad they won’t read it in In These Times.


The email came in on February 21, 2012. It said “Please Help Me”

Okay I thought, this is a scam. Someone crying that their funds are tied up in a Ugandan trust and they need me to forward cash. Right.

But lately I’ve heard from too many people who are desperate for answers because they are in severe pain following a common medical procedure – the implantation of synthetic surgical mesh to treat hernias in men and women and pelvic organ prolapse and incontinence in women. So I clicked.

“Jane, I am sitting in a hotel room here in Washington DC.  Flew in from far west Texas to see a doctor to consult about mesh removal for my mom. This doctor was highly recommended.   My mom is in such pain and has been for two years…the flight alone was hell.  She was a very active woman prior to having this put in her.

This was a waste of time and money as the doctor here acted like this was no big deal and referred us to some urogynecologist in Albuquerque.

Jane, I don’t know what to do.  I have never seen my mom cry like this.  I have never seen her so weak and scared.  No one in my web research will say with clarity who to trust.  I am flying back home tomorrow with my mom and I am more confused than ever. My mom is saying things like “I just give up.”

What do I do?  PLEASE PLEASE give me any guidance you can.”

The woman left her phone number and email.  Her mother turned up in a cursory Google search to be who she claimed. I called the daughter.

There are thousands of men and women living in debilitating pain from permanently implanted synthetic petroleum-based surgical mesh. Turning to me as an option shows just how desperate these people are. I’m not a doctor or a lawyer but a journalist who began writing about mesh complications in the spring of 2009 after being contacted by a persistent mesh victim.

I couldn’t believe what I heard.  For some reason, in some people, mesh migrates and perforates organs, erodes into the vagina, can cause a systemic inflammatory response and intense pain all over the body. In men, hernia mesh has been known to entangle nerves and form a hard plastic ball. The actual complication rate is unknown even by the U.S. Food and Drug Administration (FDA).

The thousands of mesh-injured men and women are victims of a perfect storm – the aggressive marketing of the medical device industry paired with the hands-off regulation by the FDA toward medical devices which relies on the mesh makers for assurances of safety and efficacy.

And while I tell the stories of women and men who are injured by surgical mesh on my Mesh Medical Device News Desk (MDND) website, there is very little I can do to help. I don’t refer the injured to lawyers or doctors, despite receiving support from two law firms, but what I do, as I did here, is put her in touch with women and men who have gone through the same living hell and are now advocating for others.

Many who I talk to are bankrupt and without insurance. Others return to their original doctor only to be turned away with phrases like, “You’re the only one I’ve seen,” and to be given a prescription for an antidepressant.

Others begin a succession of specialist visits only to be met by a wall of resistance and denial.  In some cases, a doctor will attempt a removal only to leave the arm of the mesh behind which often leaves the woman in worse condition.

 “On return to the doctor who placed the mesh in me, he claimed upon re-examination that he could not find anything wrong. I suffer with excruciating pelvic pain on my left side radiating into my lower back spine left side. I’ve had CT scans, a MRI and can’t seem to diagnose anything. I can’t stand or sit for long periods or walk. NO one can help me. I’ve been to three different OB-GyNs with the same thing, we can’t find anything.”

A man told me his mother was in such pain from a mesh implant that she shot herself to end the pain.


An estimated 13 million American women experience stress urinary incontinence (SUI), a leak of urine that can happen during a sneeze, laughter or physical stress. It’s estimated about 20-40% of women have some form of incontinence.

Pelvic organ prolapse (POP), involves the decent of pelvic organs, the bladder, urethra, small bowel, rectum, or uterus, through the vaginal vault due to weakness of the connective tissues due to multiple births, age, hysterectomy, menopause and injury. Some experts feel we inherit the collagen which makes connective tissues and muscles strong. Exercise, or the lack of, may play a role.

Except in rare cases, POP is a nuisance but not life-threatening and many women are asymptomatic. The condition can be maintained by using a pessary, a rubber insert that holds back descending organs, making lifestyle changes, and through surgical intervention to stitch up the anterior or posterior vaginal wall.

Surgical mesh was first used to repair abdominal hernias in the 1950s, but fast forward to the 1990s and fuelled with aggressive marketing pushing a host of new petroleum-based materials, gynecologists began using synthetic polypropylene or polyester surgical mesh, some delivered in precut boxes, to hold up the urethra or the vaginal vault.

The FDA reports about 300,000 U.S. women underwent POP repair in 2010 with 75,000 of those procedures involving transvaginal (through the vagina) implantation of surgical mesh. And even gynecologists, many who were never trained as surgeons, can attend weekend cadaver training sessions offered by the major mesh makers – Ethicon (Johnson & Johnson), Boston Scientific, American Medical Systems, and C.R. Bard to learn how to implant mesh in the blind procedure.

One woman told MDND her doctor said this new surgical option for his practice would be his “bread and butter.”


“Biggest regret of my life, as it has ruined my life, my sons childhood, and my hysbands and mines marriage. Its truly a living hell. ~ 25-year-old implanted with mesh after a hysterectomy.

Most Americans assume that medical devices undergo the same sort of scrutiny as pharmaceuticals, but they would be wrong. Ninety percent of the 4,000 medical devices approved for market by the FDA every year do not require proof that they have been clinically tested for safety and efficacy.

Instead, they are approved under the 510(k) process –a fast-track system that’s an approval for marketing. Device makers like the relative low cost and ease that can bring their device into the marketplace after an exchange of paperwork.

Most of today’s gynecologic mesh can thank Boston Scientific. In 1996, the FDA cleared its ProteGen Sling for market which served as the ‘predicate,’ a device “substantially equivalent” to the new one seeking approval, required under the 510(k) process.

From 1992 to 2010, the FDA cleared 168 510(k) for synthetic surgical mesh for urogynecologic conditions, many which named the ProteGen as  predicate. But there was a problem.

ProteGen was recalled in March 1999 for being defective, “adulterated and misbranded.” But there is no trigger within the FDA to initiate a re-review of all of the devices that had named the defective ProteGen as a predicate.

The FDA reports in 2001 the number of clearances per year doubled and increased another 50 percent the following year.

And so did the complications.

By 2011, the agency reported 2,874 reports of injury, death and malfunctions from January 2008 to December 2010 associated with urogynecologic surgical mesh – a fivefold jump. Falling just short of a recall, a Public Health Notification by the FDA in July 2011 warned of the risks of mesh.

The FDA is issuing this update to inform you that serious complications associated with surgical mesh for transvaginal repair of POP are not rare. This is a change from what the FDA previously reported on Oct. 20, 2008. Furthermore, it is not clear that transvaginal POP repair with mesh is more effective than traditional non-mesh repair in all patients with POP and it may expose patients to greater risk.”


Daniel S. Elliott, MD, Assist Professor of Urology at the Mayo College of Medicine in Rochester, MN specializes in female urology and pelvic organ prolapse. He told MDND that the Mayo Clinic refuses to use mesh for transvaginal POP repair because it carries more risks than added benefits.

“On a weekly basis, either I or my colleagues evaluate and treat patients suffering from the consequences of the non-absorbable mesh kits. The diagnoses run the gamut of mild vaginal erosion (or extrusion) to devastating urethral and/or bladder erosions with severe, debilitating, life-altering chronic pelvic pain. The patients have suffered needlessly because the standard POP repair without mesh, in properly trained hands, is easy, fast, and effective, avoiding the unique complications associated with non-absorbable mesh kits.”

Dr Elliott has joined Public Citizen in calling for a complete ban on synthetic mesh until multiple independent, non-industry supported research can show any benefit.

“Anything less would be surgically irresponsible and ethically unacceptable.”


One woman, who does not want to be identified, had a professional life including a waterfront home in Florida, a successful business, and a nice car.  When she went in for a hysterectomy, she mentioned to her doctor she sometimes suffered from incontinence.

Her doctor told her not to worry. He said he had a new tape and she’d really like it. She was implanted with the  Ethicon TVT Prolene polypropylene mesh.

Thirty-six hours after being released from the hospital she was back with a raging flesh-eating infection which almost took her life. Shes undergone nearly 20 surgeries since for infection and mesh removal.  She points out that the mesh package insert says Prolene mesh may have to be removed because it can “potentiate an infection.”

Dr. Donald Ostergard has published reports that say mesh is not inert in the body. Produced with antimicrobials, adhesion preventatives and surfactants, it may be impossible to measure the chemical reactions between the polymer mesh and the human body which can lead to a host of problems including chronic inflammation and autoimmune diseases.


A petition filed by Public Citizen last August joins in the chorus demanding synthetic mesh be recalled from the market and reclassified as a Class III medical device which requires premarket approval application (PMA) that includes data from clinical trials that provide a reasonable assurance the product is safe and effective.

Consumers Union in February of this year launched its Safe Patient Project  to urge more rigorous testing on all permanent medical implants before they are marketed and to establish some tracking system not unlike the VIN number on a car. At the present time there is no registry for medical devices.

Most people I interview for MDND don’t even know what kind of device they have until they start requesting pre-surgical notes.

At the present time, it’s easier to track a defective Toyota than a defective implanted medical device.

Like Public Citizen, Consumers Union wants to abandon the 510(k) process and to start some sort of post-surgical registry.

Rep. Edward Markey in his Sound Devices Act, wants to eliminate the use of a predicate device like the ProteGen sling when it has been found defective. Rep. Henry Waxman is requesting the House Energy and Commerce Committee hold hearings, but the requests are falling on deaf bipartisan ears concerned that the medical device industry may suffer in sales and innovation if the protests get too loud.

In an effort to catch up, last January, the FDA ordered 33 mesh manufacturers to begin collecting as much as three years of safety data on the implants.


“Mr. Hansen, I am tired.  I get up every day dealing with my own painful symptoms and then I read the stories of others.  It is too much for me and a tiny group of women to handle alone.  We need your help. 

I will hopefully have mesh removal later this year by the best and most experience surgeon in the world.  I will turn sixty-five in June and at last have Medicare insurance to see this doctor.  His name is Dr. Shlomo Raz of UCLA.  He knows the truth.  He is so booked up with mesh removal surgeries, that is difficult to get an appointment.

“Please Mr. Hansen. Help us.”

~Mesh Patient Writing to Chris Hansen of Dateline

So far the consensus is Dr. Shlomo Raz at UCLA is the premier doctor in the world for mesh removals and approximately 100 – 150 women a month fly in from around the globe to have him peel eroding mesh off of their bladder and spinal column. His assistant, Elizabeth, says Dr. Raz finds a great deal of comfort from the thank you letters he receives from the grateful women.

Meanwhile hundreds of lawsuits against manufacturers have been filed and have been consolidated in the Southern District of West Virginia in multidistrict litigation to be heard sometime in 2012.

Synthetic mesh remains on the market.  #




By | 2012-03-19T23:22:45+00:00 March 19th, 2012|Featured|17 Comments

About the Author:

I’m National News Editor, Jane Akre and I began Mesh Medical Device News Desk aka Mesh News Desk (MND) in the summer of 2011 just after the Food and Drug Administration issued an explicit warning to the public that complications associated with surgical mesh used for prolapse repair (POP) and incontinence (SUI) are NOT rare! That was the starting point for the litigation you see today and thousands of lawsuits have been filed by women whose lives have been altered, some permanently, by the use of this petroleum-based product.


  1. todd maiuccoro June 23, 2012 at 3:03 pm - Reply

    Hi my name is Todd I had ahernia surgerie in october 6 2009 they put prolene mesh n me well i was in the hospital i ran a fever of 103 sfter surgerie they did some test on me for a week then decided to go in agian so they did surgerie i woke up with an ostomy bag on me and not knowing what t was i freaked out and pulled it off of me well bigmistake there the dr told me that part of the mesh broke and infected my bowels whcich they took some out andput the ostomy bag on me i was in hosptal for a few months after i had to have nurses come in twice a day and do bandage dressing this really sucked i was so depressed i did not eat and went back to the hospital for kidney failuer . i went in for 2 months then came home had nurses again got better then in july 2010 i had the ostomy taken off i am struggling right know have no money what so ever and trying to find a lawyer that will take my case and that will alow law suit funding while i am awaiting for this to settle so i can pay my bills and have something to live of of i have more hernias again can not work i take morphine for pain 3 times a day and i do not know hwat i can i am very depressed thank you so much for helping people like me someday i would like to tell you my life story and what a living hell ui been threw thank you todd maiuccoror

  2. Concerned Daughter August 2, 2012 at 1:30 pm - Reply

    I am so glad I came across this article. My mother had bladder surgery last march and they put mesh in. A few months after surgery she started having major complications. Her body started rejectiing it. Prior to the surgery she told the dr she didnt want to have it put in. He told her if she didn’t have the mesh put in he wouldnt do the surgery. Her bladder had fell and she losing bladder control what other choice did she have? After she went to the dr for her checkup and told him she was constantly in pain the dr didnt even examine her. He just said she was healing. About ten months went by and she started getting worse. She started having issues with her heart. The Dr ran several tests and cant find anything wrong with her heart. I believe its related to the mesh surgery but I do t know how its linked. She will wake up in the middle of the night and her heart will be racing, and then barely beat. I started doing some research and that led us to the Mayo Clinic in FL nwe went in February for a consultation. At first the dr didnt want to remove it but after doing further tests theyy found she had a prolapse. This changed his mind. So… In march we went back and she had surgery where he took the mesh out. The problem is he didnt get all of it. 5 months later my mom is still in pain and suffering from the mesh. We had to pay all the expenses to FL out of our pocket, 3 trips. We live about 12 hrs away frm the Mayo Clinic. I had to quit my job to take her, and take care of her. We are in desperate need of help. We are looking into going to UCLA to Dr Raz but I dont think we can afford it. We do not believe in suing but webhave talked to several lawyers. None will take on our case. Ifbwe could just get enough money to cover our expenses we would be satisfied with that. Do you know of anyone we could contact? We live in Ky. We are desperate for help. Sarah

  3. Jane Akre August 2, 2012 at 6:12 pm - Reply

    Sarah –

    I am so sorry you have had these problems. Could you tell us who at the Mayo Clinic in Florida did not remove the mesh completely? It is a difficult procedure and few can do it. She said she didn’t want mesh to be put in and he put it in anyway? Really? You have really been through it and I”m sorry.

    I’m not a doctor or a lawyer and no one really wants to sue. It does however, send a clear message to the manufacturers that injuring innocent people is not acceptable. And there is power in numbers. If you haven’t done so, you should also file an adverse event report with the FDA ( see page one on how to do that). It is the only way the agency has any idea how many of these devices are failing. Really there is no tracking, unlike your automobile which has a VIN number and you can be alerted when there is a recall.

    If you log onto the FaceBook website by the same name or you can have some of your questions answered by people who have been there. You are another example of how mesh effects not just women but whole families…please visit the resources and stay in touch… jane a.

  4. Concerned Daughter August 3, 2012 at 5:55 pm - Reply

    His name is Dr. Pettit. We contacted the Mayo Clinic today to ask why he was unable to remove all the mesh and this was the reply: the mesh has wrapped around her organs and he was afraid he would damage her organs if he tried to remove it. That being said, the Dr was not going to do surgery until he had ran further tests and found she had a prolapse. Only then did he decided he would remove the sling and fix the prolapse. The surgery was done robotic. We have set up a consultation with Dr. Raz in C.A. and we are hoping he can help her. He has been able to remove mesh slings wrapped around organs, and even the spine. This is our last resort. ~Sarah

  5. Judy S August 6, 2012 at 8:58 pm - Reply

    My name is Judy. Sarah, I know Dr. Paul Pettit—very well. In 2006, in Jacksonville, Fl I had a porcine pelvisoft graft placement–in September. MY body immediately rejected it. I suffered badly from itolerable pain and urinary retention—self cathing for 8 months. I was so ill that my family flew back home to Louisville, Ky where I was born and raised. Dr. Jason Thompson did the surgery and would not do anything for me–stating that the graft had not eroded—was just fine. I couldn’t work and was on narcotic pain meds. I travelled from Dr. to Dr.

    here in Louisville—was told I was just depressed. upon pelvic exam, I was told there was no erosion—the graft was fine–was told by a urogynecologist here that I was just addicted to drugs and needed to come off of them. I could not eat because of nausea and severe pain and bloating—-severe constipation without taking any meds at all. I, finally, travelled down to Mayo–I used to work there in cardiology and had my first bladder reapair there by Dr. Anita Chen–with no graft. I saw Dr. Paul Pettit. He examined me–Said the the graft was fine and he would never be able to find it because by this time, it had been in about 16 months. He told me to come off the pain medicine and try lyrica and that pain meds were often difficult to quit and to admit myself in a clinic. He treated me like a drug addict. My family can testify and validate that I am not that. I saw Dr. Pettit around January 2008. In March 2008, I was examined by Dr. John Miklos in Georgia—an excellent surgeon known all over the world. He examined me with a laparascope–looking from the inside out–not the outside in. He told myself and my son

    that the first thing he saw was the mesh—it had not encapsulated and had splintered into a lot of pieces and

    was floating around in my abdominal cavity. Remember this was three months after the Pettit visit at mayo. Dr. miklos took pictures of the mesh pieces and told me that because of the inflammation of that mesh material I had developed severe adhesions—the third worst case he had ever seen—he removed those as

    well and I have been in chronic pain ever since.

    I met Dr. Pettit also,in 2001. He assisted Dr. Tracy Wells with what was supposed to be an ovary removal—both of them. In the op note, he stated that due to severe adhesions which he could not cut out because of safety reasons, that the procedure had to be done via an open laparotomy and not the laparascope. They left the adhesions. as a result, I had a colon blockage in 2005 due to adhesions which choked off part of my colon.

    It is interesting to note, that Dr. Paul Pettit is a colleage of Dr. Jason Thompson who put the graft material in.

    It is my opinion that Dr. Pettit does not have the expertise to be responsible for using a laparascope or any type of robotic procedure. He does not tell the truth either. The graft material was easily removed by Dr. Miklos.

    Godspeed, Sarah.

  6. Concerned Daughter August 14, 2012 at 9:54 pm - Reply

    Wow I am so sorry that you had to go through all that. Its a shame that Doctors treat their patients like that. I understand to a degree what you are talking about because my mom went through the same thing. No one believed she was in pain. Her Doctor that pur the sling in said she was still healing. My dad told her its all in her head. Sadly they have no idea, and they dont care! After your surgery with Dr. Miklos are you better? I have read many things about him and we had thought about going there since he would be closer. As it stands right now we are going to see Dr. Raz for a consultation in a few months. I emailed him and asked him of he could help my mom. Within an hour he replied and asked further questions into moms complications. I was very impressed. He is well known all over the world. As a matter of fact he is going to Russia next month to teach Doctors how to remove mesh. I spoke with his secretary and she said they are booked out 5 months for mesh removal surgery. This guy stays busy! Thank you for sharing you story! My dad had wanted mom to go back to Dr. Pettit, and I said no way, he didnt do anything to help her! This will back me up even more. Thanks!!

    God Bless


  7. Judy S September 23, 2012 at 8:30 pm - Reply

    Sarah, Prolapse can be a chronic problem for many women. I am one of those women. It has taken a long time for me to realize it. One of the things I have learned from my ongoing experiences is that prolapse pain pales in comparison with eroded, fragmented, migrated or, otherwise, infected mesh! Mesh should have been done away with a long time ago. But, I guess it has made someone very rich—right? I am right.

    When my family flew me home from Jacksonville, Fl to Louisville, I thought I was dying. That is the truth. I could not get up and brush my teeth. I could do nothing for myself. I was very ill. The human spirit, though, is amazing. I told everyone that knew me that I was not going to have my character bashed and my body ruined witihout a fight and I fought. I sold my home in Fl. bought a computer and—–found Dr. Miklos in Alpharetta, Ga. It is about a four hour drive from louisville. He is an amazing Dr. I would recommend him to everyone. He took pictures of what Dr. Pettit stated could not be found. He, also, sent copies of them to all of the doctors here in Louisville that—-refused to help—bashed my character—you know the story.

    I cannot tell you which doctor to see. However, Dr. Miklos is gentle and very well trained with a laparascope.

    I am sure Dr. Raz is well trained also. My case is different than your moms. The mesh problems that I experienced in 2006 to 2008 were very serious. The mesh had worked it’s way up and around my intestines, bladder and everywhere. My Mother suffered with prolapse. She had two failed surgeries. Prolapse, in and of itself can ruin relationships and your entire life. I do not know your Mother’s background. I can tell you that I was perfectly healthy—until I had both ovaries removed in Florida due to recurring cysts-painful cysts. I was advised to have both of them removed in 2001. I was advised, in Fl by one of Dr. Petti’s partners to have them both removed . I asked them to leave one—for estrogen. My gyn told me that due to possibility of them becoming cancerous, it would be better to remove both of them. What they did not know was that I, already, had a tummy full of scar tissue due to the hysterrectomy in1984 and their ovary surgery could–not be done with a laparascope so—-yes, they added to that existing scar tissue by cutting me open because they could not see the ovaries with the laparascope due to the existing scar tissue. I am blessed to be alive—-really, I am. Health problems starting coming my way after that. I lost one foot of my colon—-yes, due to scar tissue. I know all of these things because I have spent hours requesting my medical records.

    Before I write a novel, I am just going to say —be very careful in regards to what physicians recommend for you.

    And, for your Mother. Dr. Paul Pettit–was an assisant in that surgery. How is it that Dr. Miklos could remove the scar tissue and between Dr. Pettit and my Gynecologist—Dr. T. Wells—between two doctors—they could not—? If I had a daughter that suffered with prolapse, scar tissue, mesh rejection—whatever–I would not hesitate to get her in to see Dr. John Miklos. He used Co Seal to reduce scar tissue (adhesions and absolutely no adhesions returned after my surgery with him. I know that because I had an exploratory laparoscopy here in Louisville to find out. Make sure whomever your mom sees uses an adhesive barrier.

    I will continue to pray for all of you and for the doctors and all medical professionals that practice their Hippocratic Oath—of doing no harm. Godspeed.

  8. Ralph October 5, 2012 at 12:59 am - Reply

    This is sad and very disturbing. Doctors who do irresponsible surgical procedures should be severely sanctioned, up to and including being charged with criminal negligence.

    That said, it is still unfortunately the patient’s burden to avoid any kind of surgery whenever there is a reasonable alternative. For those considering undergoing a surgical procedure that is not lifesaving, I advise you to think, and think hard, about whether you really want to take that much risk.

    Surgery can have wonderful results when it is really necessary and is performed by a top practitioner. Otherwise avoid it! Just say, “Thank you doctor, I don’t want to have that right now, but I will give it some thought.” Then do as much research as you can. Ask around among family and friends, check Facebook and Google. If anything looks negative or risky, be safe: don’t have the surgery!

  9. teresa hughes November 5, 2012 at 8:18 pm - Reply

    I am so sorry hear of such heart rendering stories which leaves us to believe who can we trust with our bodies.

    We do need competent surgeons if we need any sort of surgery as we go through life. I myself have also come across so many consultants who have told so many lies to me and others who are economical with the truth.

    When they take their oath as doctors they should reflect on those words as they gain experience which does not include covering up situations and deliberately lying.

    We know mistakes can be made when having surgery but do they have to go to such lengths and play around with our mental health and have us believe that sometimes we are imagining things.

  10. p is for pain December 29, 2012 at 11:20 pm - Reply

    I have read so many people speaking of their pain of the bladder mesh. I have suffered for 4 years, and no doctors and nurses care, fda care less, and surely the chemical companies that got rich careless, doctors and nurses cover for each other , I have gone through removal and have been lied to by doctors in my state . I understand the woman that the son said his mother blew her brains out, I have not got out in a long time except to get food, and my head and the pain from infection tonight. I go to bed every night , knowing it could be my last. last surgery was last month, , I think I have pnumonia, I am weak, as never before, I am up and down all night can’t breathe, my immune system to fight off anything is 0 . 4 years anti biotic do no good. doctor will not answer questions, most cruel if you ask me, I have cussed everyone out, at the hospital especially blacks that seem to play their con games when you leave message, and thety think it is funny a white woman suffering death, and they have the power to make sure messages do not get through.

    Never have I known a generation so evil in medical.

  11. p is for pain December 29, 2012 at 11:30 pm - Reply

    Someone needs to let the judges know what the doctors and nurses and attorneys are doing, the doctors so cruel, but attorneys say they do not care how the women are being treated they are after the chemical companies. NOT CARING IF THE WOMEN ARE GETTING MEDICAL HELP AT ALL AND WHAT THEY ARE GOING THROUGH.



    They know they have murdered me, and for the rest of my life I have got to have medical help, but if I do not bend and bpw, if I ask questions, about what they are doing , they will not see me!



  12. Robert F. Hopkins December 30, 2012 at 9:02 pm - Reply

    I am one of the victims of this mesh. It tortured me for 5 years. I do used the word torture in jest. It is the only description that can be applied as to what this mesh does to a human being. In my search for someone to remove it, I went to all the Icons: Tom Jeff (Phila), Penn State (Hersh, PA), Georgetown, Mayo Clinic (Jacksonville,FL), At John Hopkins, Baltimore I met with DR. Fredrick Eckhauser who conveyed , “He did not get mesh implanted for his hernia because of the problems with it”) , But he refused to help me liked all the others. Some even yelled at me for coming to them, and that there is “no problem with the mesh”. I did get it removed in 2010 in Berlin Germany. Any surgeon who uses or defends this practice with the exception of extreme cases is one lying, two an agent of torture for money, three a coward for bowing to the corp powers that be, and a student of Joesph Mengella. You can bet they, themselves won’t have it implanted in their body, or their kids relatives or friends or implant it anyone with social, economic, or political power. NOTE: The Corporations and Doctors who are implanting this mesh without informing their patients are guilty of torturing human beings for money. And for those who claim they didn’t or don’t know. Ignorance is no excuse, especially for an MD. Robert F Hopkins

  13. Regina Simmons October 23, 2013 at 1:51 pm - Reply

    My name is Regina,

    I had a baby girl in 2009 and she was a god sent I also have a son who is 16. In 2010 I thought I was finally getting the medical attention I needed . I was in diapers along with my daughter due to a rectal prolapse a severe on in thickness and length. I was seen in my home town of manchester NH first. Then the surgeons here referred me with one glance of what he saw hanging from me. So I went to the Layhee in Burlington Mass where I was told nothing of the dangers of the surgery. All I was told is he was a top notch surgeon and the only one he knew who could HELP me. He told me being so young and having my whole life ahead of me he would write to my insurance company to ask them to let him help me so I wouldn’t end up with a colostomy bag. He wrote in his report I was despite the rectal prolapse I was a young woman in perfect health. I talked about my baby and my son and made it clear how badly they needed there mother well. I find myself now after years of pain and unexplainable symptoms from a mystery rash that covered my body in think sour flaming red welts. And some cellulitis exstream fatigue and last but not the least severe rapid onset of adult scoliosis that is twisting my spine from the very bottom of my tail bone where the sling mesh was put in all the way up to my C1 vertebrae causing my vision to go. I can’t lie on a pillow without excuciating pain. I have not been able to have bowel movements for months at a time and when I do it looks bloody and is never a solid formed stool only muck. I have lost my enamal on what once was very nice teeth now they are falling out along with my lashes. I have palpitations and breathing problems. I started seeing doctors 3 months after my operations pleading them for help. I am a single mother with a very abusive family and have because of the sudden hault in my being able to feel well have no friends either, oh and no man except one who prayed upon my neediness and saw a chance to abused me as well. I have heard only that its all due to mental illness. Over and over again I am exploited for being ill. I have not one person I can ask to watch my daughter who herself is globally developmentally disabled. My reaching out to family became a fear tatic. I had a puppy who I brought to the vet and knew I had to do what was best for her and that was giving her up for adoption as I’m unable to care for her anymore. I can relate very well to the story of the mother who blew her brains out as I have to admit If I had a gun? I have contemplated day acted day living in this body and seeing the disappointment in my kids eyes specially my oldest as Im not the mother he knew and loved. I used to be so strong. I can only pray there is a end to this suffering that doesn’t end with my kids being motherless. I don’t know how it would affect my daughter she needs me I’m the only one who can understand here and she knows. Ofcorse she knows her pre k teacher. However to get the help I need desperately I have no choice than to see her feeling abandoned. My mother loves to kick me when Im down and text the whole family about me and her diagnosis of me. No one believes or understands what I’m going through. Its all just entertainment for them as I’ve been the scapegoat all my life. I’m in a private hell. My cry’s for help back fired and my brother who is the periodical son wants to prove me unfit and take my daughter with my mothers help. She has convinced them all its in my head. Little do they realize I have dreams and I get so much out of seeing a smile on my kids faces and being part of showing them new exciting experiences. I always worked and had a adventurous soul. But my life as I know it is long gone. My optimism is fading fast. How long can a person really suffer in this hell. Tourtue was mentioned and it hit what we feel right on the money. I dnt know where to turn. My mind n soul are intact so I’m grieving the life I wanted and knew . I’m invisible and everyone is blind to my desperate need for some kind of compassion. This is not fair to my daughter but looking at the choices and black hearted soulless and vindictive family who would brain wash my daughter with there projections or a father who has become a drug addict and doesn’t know his daughter n she doesn’t know him. Either way a world of hurt is all I see ahead. I can only comfort and protect my girl if I’m here and that is a long shot now. I have fought through this made appt’s in the 3 hours she has school and pledded for help but im turned away and critized for being emotional. I have tried in everyway to be heard hoping just one doctor has a soft spot and belief though the tears. What can I do plz plz help me

    • Jane Akre October 25, 2013 at 10:46 am - Reply

      Regina~ I’m so sorry what has happened to you. first of all, it’s not your fault and your family needs to understand that you are just one of thousands, if not hundreds of thousands of women and men who has had some sort of reaction to mesh. I’m not a doctor, I’m looking at your life before and your life afterward. You describe symptoms that many people share, they also share being ostracized by their family. I ask others reading this to reach out to Regina!! Regina, do you have your medical records? Do you have an attorney? Most importantly, do you have any doctor who you can rely on, someone who has been kind and compassionate at least. Please answer those questions. As a first step, any doctor will need to see your records,,, insurance would be helpful here to get you on the right path. You can write to me at if you want to keep this information private… Thank you and please respond ASAP!!! People want to help you and do believe you!

    • Betty October 27, 2013 at 7:46 pm - Reply

      I am so sorry you’re going through this. Hell is a good way to describe it. There are Dr.’s who will believe you. They’re hard to find. I also had an abusive family and can’t imagine dealing with that along with the mesh. I have found a new family in my church, which I’ve been in for 32 years. There are some good caring people out there, but they are very hard to find. Sad to say, even in the church. But they are there. Being single you may qualify for extra help. Don’t give up, no matter how tempting it may be. Children are not stupid and at some point they will see the truth. We do believe you and know the issues that you’re facing. We have faced them, and are in the process of facing them. You are not the only one who has rashes or other issues from mesh. I think it is evil.

      I pray you will get the help you need.

  14. Norma Jean Wilson August 15, 2014 at 3:36 pm - Reply


    I had the Transvaginal Mesh (TVT) placed in 2010 and I’m experiencing the same pain you’ve spoken of in this article and then some,( unable to walk, sit or stand for long periods of time, horrible back pain and hip pain.) Did the lady from this article ever get anything accomplished?

    • Jane Akre August 15, 2014 at 4:33 pm - Reply

      Norma Jean… which woman are you referring to? Many do improve after a mesh removal especially if they are in pain as you are. Reach out and there may be some help in your area.

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