Open Letter to Judge Goodwin

//Open Letter to Judge Goodwin

Open Letter to Judge Goodwin

Judge Goodwin

Judge Goodwin

Editors Note* Judge Jospeh Goodwin is overseeing more than 70,000 transvaginal mesh cases consolidated in his federal court in West Virginia. That occurred three years ago and mesh settlements either are slow in coming or nonexistent. This MND readers writes an open letter to Judge Goodwin to help her. Please chime in if you feel the same way. We will bring this article to Judge Goodwin’s attention. Thank you.


Dear Judge Goodwin-

I’m writing this a day before I have to put my dog down. She’s been my constant companion for 14 years and that, along with my mesh pain and the lag in any settlement talks has me looking for strength to continue.

I feel as though no one is listening.  American Medical Systems, my mesh manufacturer, is taking its sweet time to issue a decent settlement to thousands of us. Many of us are out of time.  I simply cannot wait another two years for AMS to decide to give us whatever amount they choose. My brain is gone, I’m not healing, I am depressed, angry and frustrated. My husband and I live paycheck to paycheck.

At the very least AMS should be offering us lost wages for our suffering. I had to stop working because the OxyContin no longer allowed me to function.   Even my doctor said stop working. An auto accident victim receives lost wages, which for me, I calculated to be about $500,000. I’m not being greedy, I just want my wages back.

I need physical therapy and another removal surgery. Without any settlement monies, I cannot afford it.

Judge Goodwin, if AMS and the others will not offer settlements approximating what they have taken away, send these claims back to the states to be tried. Let’s move things along. We know they are not serious because they are not even talking to individual attorneys about us, their clients. How can the companies know what we have lost if they don’t ask?  Are they just giving a ballpark number?  That is not acceptable!

My little dog was like my child. She gave me the strength to carry on. Now I have to say goodbye to her too along with so much of my life I have lost.

Judge Goodwin, Can you help us? Please. To wait just adds insult to injury and many of us cannot endure this travesty any longer. I cry every day and I so sick of all of this. Please keep me in your prayers along with all the other women. I just wonder how many have to die or think about it before someone listens.

I have no hope and strength left. I’m just waiting to die without a decent settlement soon.

God Bless,

Anonymous woman

By | 2015-03-20T17:03:19+00:00 March 20th, 2015|Your Turn|198 Comments

About the Author:

I’m National News Editor, Jane Akre and I began Mesh Medical Device News Desk aka Mesh News Desk (MND) in the summer of 2011 just after the Food and Drug Administration issued an explicit warning to the public that complications associated with surgical mesh used for prolapse repair (POP) and incontinence (SUI) are NOT rare! That was the starting point for the litigation you see today and thousands of lawsuits have been filed by women whose lives have been altered, some permanently, by the use of this petroleum-based product.


  1. Tammy March 20, 2015 at 5:35 pm - Reply

    God bless you, for being so brave to share your personal feelings. I understand and can relate to your feelings. I have had many surgeries and have another on the 4th of April. I am 50, tried of hurting, worrying and suffering. I feel the company that made my mesh product ( J & J) doesnt care enough to ask my atty about settlements. They’re taking their time, because they feel they can. My life is changed forever. They hope we will go away. This product is made from material that wasnt meant to go into the human body. If we were animals……this would be all over the news. ( i do have and love animals) What is happening to our court systems? I have always trusted the courts and medical fields. I worked hands on in the medical field for many years. I agree with needing this to move forward in a much faster fashion. My case is filed in WV court, has been for years. Please, Judge Goodwin help us to encourage these companies to move forward to allow justice to rain. Thank you Jane for allowing us to have a voice…… blessed ladies and praying for Gods will to be done……please dont give up Hope.

    I am so sorry about your friend being put down. I have a dog, Rosie that has been a loyal friend…..i know that love as well. My prayers are with you and your loss.

    • Kim Z June 26, 2016 at 6:09 am - Reply

      Do we have any options for Legal Counsil or is mueller Law my only choice. this firm is failing to read my medical records and has me in a low c class status of getting a final payout of $ 40.000.00. I get Uti,s 6 times a year my antibiotics are causing yeast in my blood and my immune system is failing as I have had Epsein Barr for one year now and low grade cancer cells in my cervix from the yeast and mesh that was still left in my body after the first removal. The mesh is not removable because it is fused to my bladder and has caused nerve damage and bladder spasms. My only comfort is from taking unreleased and it $500.00 a month and my insurance is $ 620 a month because my husband left me and I am on his work cobra only for 3 years. I need help now, while I have the cobra.

      • Jane Akre June 27, 2016 at 8:05 am - Reply

        Sounds like you need another medical consult because you cannot and should not live with this situation. Where are you located.? There may be a doc in your area….

    • Summer October 25, 2016 at 10:50 pm - Reply

      This is a shame I’ve been going through constant agony since had monarch sling in had three corrective surgeries nothing more can be done through low income medical and my case has been tossed from attorney to attorney zero contact in this four yr period only to make me an offer of 500 dollars what a slap in face

      • Jane Akre October 26, 2016 at 6:39 am - Reply

        I’m so sorry….Your is a perfect example of the problems with the system. Just because you did not have more than one surgery in your case was not due to need (I presume) but rather based on economics…. meaning those of you without assets are treated with the least amount of respect in terms of settlement….I do hope you can appeal

  2. anonymous March 20, 2015 at 5:38 pm - Reply

    I cannot sign this because I do not want to have anybody come back against me in retaliation which I fear. good good when I’m not some hysterical female I’ve been to hell in my life. along the way Jesus is always supported me. but I don’t even have the strength to pray anymore. every word is as serious as a heart attack in this letter. please I beg of you listen don’t let AMS or any other company prolong the settlements or we will all surely die.

    • Another Mesh Victim March 24, 2015 at 6:22 pm - Reply

      Hello Anonymous,

      Please read the following development from CNBC

      Help on the horizon. Hold on you will be vindicated.

      I had 3 surgeries myself and no longer a candidate for further revisions due to excessive scarring.

      Lost my first husband, almost my second due to these health issues.

      I can relate. Gain lots of weight because exercise meant wearing a hug diaper.

      Our day will come sister. Don’t give up hope.



  3. tonia christie March 20, 2015 at 5:39 pm - Reply

    All I would like to add is that we are more than a name on a list ,we are not criminals and we arent trying to get over on the companies named in our lawsuits.. We just want to find a time machine so we can either return to the day before this awful thing that was supposed to improve the quality of our lives was put in our bodies or to the day after the pain stops but that’s not an option …so we must rely on a courtroom full of strangers who don’t know us or what we have been thru to put a dollar amount on our suffering ….well I for one can’t imagine any amount of money that would compensate me for what I’ve lost ….and in everything I’ve read from the companies. Involved in this travesty I have yet to see the word “sorry” or “apologize” any where….

  4. Suzanne McClain March 20, 2015 at 5:52 pm - Reply

    Sadly, we are all in the same boat, to some degree or another! My lawsuit has been filed for nearly 5 years now, and we are no closer to receiving a resolution. I have had five mesh related surgeries, and I am tens of thousands of dollars in the hole, also living pay check to pay check. The mesh manufacturer for the product that injured me was Johnson & Johnson. I too, just want this to be over, and I’d like to be reimbursed for all of my actual expenses, and pain and suffering before I die.

  5. I Kadi March 20, 2015 at 6:18 pm - Reply

    Greetings to every one.

    this letter should be signed by tens of thousands

    so their voices can be heard.

    My wife suffered for years and died in pain

    All I can say is to hell with JNJ

    They will and should pay a heavy price

    Bless you all

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 9:41 pm - Reply

      <3 It breaks my heart to hear this, I am so very sorry for her pain and suffering and for your lost love

  6. Lisa (Florida) March 20, 2015 at 6:19 pm - Reply

    HOW MUCH LONGER? I too have been waiting for years and now the pain has gotten progressively worse and with no insurance or money to see a doctor, I patiently wait for accountability from the mesh manufacturers for the damage they have done to my body and my life How much longer do I have to wait to have the additional repair procedures and get the help I so desperately need? That WE ALL NEED?

    I’ve been monitoring this website for some time now, reading similar horror stories and taking solitary comfort in the fact that there are so many others out there that can relate to my situation and can also take comfort in the fact that we are not alone! It helps me feel…. not so isolated, forgotten and discarded.

    To all those suffering along side me, physically and emotionally and to Jane for all her dedication and hard work, you have my heart felt empathy.

    To Judge Goodwin, PLEASE PLEASE I beg for a speedy resolution. This has gone on long enough.

  7. Michelle March 20, 2015 at 7:47 pm - Reply

    This makes me sick! We, having to beg just to live. It’s disgusting and degrading. Why are we having to wait years for someone else’s mistake! If this were my product I was selling out of my home or online and it hurt 70,000 people and some resulted in death, my name would be plastered all over the news, I would be put in jail and maybe even the death penalty! How can these people wake up every morning and show their face to anyone? I would have shut my company down and closed the doors, made a national apology even if I ever hurt 1 human being. I have lost any faith in laws, rules, and oaths. I have lost so much and the worst is I have lost interest in life. Depressed and in pain. I just don’t get it. I’m so sorry for all of you, my soul sisters. I just pray that we can hold on just a little longer.

  8. Ana March 20, 2015 at 8:29 pm - Reply

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  9. Victim of Mesh March 20, 2015 at 8:44 pm - Reply

    God bless you all for the pain you have had to endure. Judge Goodwin we need someone in the justice system to stand up for us. You have a wife maybe daughter’s, granddaughters, a mother or even sisters. So many women in my family have been injured by this mesh. Some too late to file an MDL so they may get something in a class action suit but nothing will give us our lives back. I had to leave an $80,000 job that I worked for 30 yrs due to the pain and suffering. Mentally and physically I know longer feel like a woman let alone a wife or mother to my son’s. I paid in to SSDI and cannot get help it was denied? I paid into it, I deserve it. But no I we have to use my IRA to keep our home and pay medical expenses, buy groceries, put gas in my car to get to these Dr appts when they say more surgery you may be worse off than you are now? Because mesh was made NOT to be removed. I have been advised to have 3 more surgeries with no guarantees? I cannot take a chance until I know these drs get trained and the Pharma companies come up with a tested foolproof mesh made for humans. How do you expect us to live? Who can lay the 40% taxes on the IRA money I am using cause I am only 53. What happens when my husband leaves me without insurance for a woman who can satisfy him in every way. I cant event enjoy outings with my family or friends. We are women! The backbone of this country! My son served in Iraq and Afghanistan for our freedom. Instead he came home with PTSD and shrapnel injuries to a half a mother to try and help him stay alive when I don’t know how long I will be around to support him. This is a travesty to all us women and men who have had mesh for POP, SUI and hernias. Stop J and J for settling cases before they go to jury so they don’t have to go public with their dishonesty and injuries to thousands of women. Don’t allow these senior mgmt members who have stock in these companies to sell their shares before the bottom drops out. They will be living the high life somewhere on an island and we will be living in a cardboard box on the streets homeless. This is his we all feel. We are women, nurturing non-violent, loving people we just want justice not burn down buildings and kill to make the news. We just need your help, the FDA ‘s help to reclassifying mesh for POP and SUI to a level 3 so this doesn’t happen to more women, maybe a woman in your life that means something to you like we mean something to our families. This is true suffering and injustice? When are you going to help stop it? I honor the justice system and I understand it takes time but women are dying every day while these companies wait and hope that we do. We can only be patient and non- violent for so long but this is really bringing us down to where we just don’t give a shit anymore. Are you really going to let these lawyers and Pharma companies drive us into the ground? We are all begging for a settlement like the Mesothelioma victims cause they are still using mesh and more victims are going to come forward. Thank you for presiding over our cases but do not let us become a mockery in our own country. WE WANT JUSTICE TO PREVAIL NOW!

  10. Dedra WILSON March 20, 2015 at 8:52 pm - Reply

    I just received another enormous bill after insurance. I have been paying astronomical bills continuously for the last few years. I contacted my insurance provider to remind them that my treatments and additional surgeries were caused by the Pelvicol Acellular Collagen bladder sling that they approved initially. I am asking Judge Goodwin for relief. My life and my family’s life will never be the same, but I want to at have some normalcy returned to me and my family I RECENTLY HAD TO JUSTFY MY ABSCENCY AT WORK AS I HAVE MISSED SO MUCH TIME FROM WORK FOR SURGERIES, APPOINTMENTS AND TREATMENTS. I AM ASKING FOR QUICK SETTLEMENTS FOR ME AND ALL THE WOMEN THAT ARE SUFFERING!!!

  11. anonymous March 20, 2015 at 9:10 pm - Reply

    to all of those who agree that something needs to be done to get these companies to move along please just sign down here if nothing else. I have heard the judge Goodwin is a good man and caring man and so if we get enough people to sign this just say I agree if nothing else perhaps or have some miracle will happen and he’ll just send these back to the States where they should be and then the medical companies will have to move forward. spouses children freinds I beg of you and see how many we can get to just say I agree with these ladies this needs to move forward

    • Maria October 27, 2015 at 8:03 pm - Reply


      • anonymous October 29, 2015 at 6:45 am - Reply

        I agree but only to a point I’ve also heard judge goodwin say that there is going to be no million-dollar settlements how in the hell can he know what I deserve unless he’s willing to look at my case and take it apart piece by piece I realize these things need to move along so yes I agree I agree I agree but maybe they would move along a lot faster if we would all learn to just eat their s*** and take maybe 50 or $60,000 and go away. We just need to be careful to make sure that we are compensated completely for what we have lost and until that point I will hold it up in court. Sorry but thats how I feel any settlement this is not completely compensate us should be no settlement at all

  12. Patricia L Keefe March 20, 2015 at 9:35 pm - Reply

    LADIES…..reading your comments breaks my heart….and I’m sure you felt the same as you read. AND FINALLY REALIZE HOW MANY PEOPLE THIS HAS EFFECTED! I FEEL YOUR PAIN AND LOSS!!!!

  13. fran lane March 20, 2015 at 9:46 pm - Reply

    There truly is no justice here!

    Ever person who had a hand in bringing this product or products to the market should be implanted with this mesh.

    They should have to be bankrupt and spend the rest of their lives in prison. We are!, each and every women is imprisoned.

    How or who is bigger than the manufacturers. who can take this atrocity to the for front of the (world).

    We need to all stand together and say no. No to the manufacturers.

  14. Lisa (Florida) March 21, 2015 at 12:52 am - Reply

    I know we all want to be heard, me included, I’m tired of being quiet and playing the waiting game. However, as much as I want to be heard, Judge Goodwin won’t and CAN’T listen to me/us OR read our letters and comments. Here’s why;

    “Ex Parte” Contact with the Judge is Not Allowed

    What is an “ex parte communication”?

    “Ex parte” is a Latin phrase meaning “on one side only; by or for one party.” An ex parte communication occurs when a party to a case, or someone involved with a party, talks or writes to or otherwise communicates directly with the judge about the issues in the case without the other parties’ knowledge. Under the Judicial Code of Conduct, judges may not permit or consider “ex parte communications” in deciding a case unless expressly allowed by law. This ban helps judges decide cases fairly since their decisions are based only on the evidence and arguments presented to the court and the applicable law. It also preserves public trust in the legal and court system.

    Why are judges not allowed to consider ex parte communications?

    Would you like it if the judge spoke to the other parties about your case without your knowledge? Probably not. I wouldn’t! The rule banning ex parte communications ensures that the court process is fair and that all parties have the same information as the judge who will be deciding the case. When all parties have the same information, a party who disagrees with the information can contest it in court.

    However, I believe there are alternative ways to get results, we may not be heard but we can be seen! We need to rally together, all the victims, family members and supporters to organize a peaceful gathering showing our many faces, reminding them (Judge Goodwin, Defendants Atty’s, Mesh Manufacturers and OUR Atty’s) that we are not just case numbers!

    There are several ways we can do this. I know most of you are like me, struggling financially or drowning in debt which makes it difficult to commit to expensive travel. Perhaps there’s a solution. If we can collectively come up with a date for an unofficial “National Mesh Awareness” day And On this date we could all gather at our own state capital building for this one day. I’m sure there are enough victims, family members and supporters to cover every state in this country! And if we can get news coverage… even better! We don’t have to speak but we CAN be seen. I think this would send a very powerful message.

    I’m willing to organize this or help with anything else, I’m tired of being stagnate! Lets DO something!

    • zoggy (OHIO) March 21, 2015 at 9:02 am - Reply

      I agree with Lisa! Judge Goodwin cant read this stuff or we will all lose our cases. I suggest May 7th (Thurs) National Prayer Day). We rally in our own states and its before the weekend of Mother’s Day. I will lead and organize for Ohio, I will get the poster boards with MESH (BLACK) in the middle and a RED slash and circle around it all. At the top it should say Pray For Us Today. At the bottom MESH VICTIM. We can meet at 10:00, I will get us a room at the convention center, we can then march to the capitol building in Columbus, Ohio. If you are in a wheelchair, walker, bed, etc we will get you there. I got Ohio, Lisa has Florida, WHO ELSE IS IN THIS WITH US? Ohio email me at for details.

      • zoggy (ohio) March 29, 2015 at 7:46 pm - Reply

        So far 1 woman from Ohio has responded. I have started meet up so please go to that website and sign up. No date has been set. Waiting on permit info how much etc. MOST OF ALL………..Any interest in Ohio? I paid the dues for the meet up website. FYI to other States $86 for 6 months. I will pay for the signs and banners for us to hold for our protest. I will organize it. I am sick too. I have very little IRA money left but I will use it for us to be heard. Do you wonder why we haven’t been heard? Because we are behind closed doors. I don’t care anymore. I am sick of the prolonging of our agony. Does anyone want to say hey Ohio I will stand up too? We really have nothing to gain by doing nothing but writing our feelings on this blog. Thank you Jane you are the epitome of a women wanting to make a change. I want that too but I can do it alone. But by God if I have to than damn it I will. I’m sick of all this shit! WHO IS WITH ME IN THE GREAT BUCKEYE STATE. Come on lets be the first! Our damn votes mean so much at election time so now its time to pay it forward for the women of 1919 suffrage movement that got us our rights. Go to Ohio mesh movement MAM or email me text me 7409721885. Come on ladies and gents we are stronger in numbers!!!!

  15. jerry mcanally March 21, 2015 at 1:52 am - Reply

    im not even in this lawsuit im trying to obtain a lawyer..for myself..a man with mesh in naval area..iy hurts its costs me money everyday of my pathetic life..once strong..hunted,camped out with kids .,built race cars..cant do any of this because of a 4X6 PATCH OF PURE EVIL,..IT IS…..EVIL…SOMETHING THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO FIX YOU..DID NOTHING BUT HANDICAP MYSELF,..GROUNDED ME LIKE A CHILD,,,AND CANT COMPENSATION A THING…WHATS THE DIFFERENCE IF ITS IN A VAGINA OR A BELLYBUTTON…IT DOES THE SAME thing to us as them..i can feel the lumps the twists of overlapping scar tisdue that RIPS IF I LIFT SOMETHING MORE THAN 50POUNDS,.I FEEL FOR EVERYONE WHO HAS THIS,.MY DR TOLD MEVIVWAS A WUSSY WITH A P…. BECAUSE OF PAIN I HAD I USED A WALKER FOR 32 DAYS AFTER HERNIA REPAIR.HE RELEASED ME TO 100% WORK AFTER TWO WEEKS..I WORKED IN A WAREHOUSE AUTO PARTS. HEAVY .100 POUNDVPLUS PARTS ALL DAY,,.


    • abandoned March 21, 2015 at 3:27 am - Reply

      Dear Jerry,

      I am so sorry for your loss and pain…and the horrible ridicule of your doctor about your pain. I commend all the men who are posting along with the women on here. As much as, I hate to say or believe it…I believe the more men we get on board speaking out the more attention this will gain, as well as the fact that men seem to be heard more seriously than women. Yes, I said it…in 2015 men are not dismissed the same as women. All are in my prayers.

  16. kitty March 21, 2015 at 2:28 am - Reply

    I am awakened again–usual 1–2 hour inteval of sleep each night. If only the pain that snakes around my hip and down the sciatica would End. IF only I had enough money to have the walk in jacuzzi tub installed to afford at least some relief. A massage each week may offer some relieve from This

    sickening pain. Too many years to wait

    Thank you for your time Judge Goodwin

  17. WomenNeedYourHelp March 21, 2015 at 6:36 am - Reply

    I would like the judge to understand that AMS has NOT agreed to settlements with anyone other than those with the lowest levels of injury. AMS seems to feel no pressure from the court to settle the rest of the cases. The settlement announcement made nearly a year ago is not helping those who have had and need multiple surgeries. These women need the funds to travel to specialists and to survive. I ask that court put the pressure on AMS to settle these cases. Also be aware that Endo reportedly sold a large part of AMS to Boston Scientific for $1.6 billion. The women’s health division is what remains and Endo expects it to go to private equity. The AMS brand will cease to exist. Endo has the funding for the settlements and Endo can begin to recover from the bad press generated by their AMS mesh products. On the other hand, the women most injured by the AMS products cannot begin their recovery.

  18. zoggy (OHIO) March 21, 2015 at 9:04 am - Reply


  19. anonymous March 21, 2015 at 9:23 am - Reply

    In a few short hours my little girl puppy will be gone. My whole reason for hanging on. she has been there for me through everything. some may not understand the great love that I had for this animal but she has been like a daughter to me. I pray that God would let her live until I got some money from the settlement so I can move on with my life. but AMS refuses to settle. I’m blocked in my home for so long I can’t even remember what it’s like to get out because I’m constantly in pain. I need surgery so I can afford and treatment I can’t afford. my world is empty and my heart is broken. my face in the court systems is all but bankrupt. I have lost family time I’m marriage and now my beloved little puppy. you win AMS you have to break my life and making a mess one that I do not care to be even around to continue with. there is no hope no future. I prayed that I would have enough money to start my life over again. but no is my dog’s death and the news that it will still take years for me to get a settlement what do I have to look forward to except pain and misery.

    I simply want judge Goodwin to listen to the people who say women should get paid for their pain and suffering lost wages and medical. even the trees have said that by warding women millions. nothing more needs to be said or done except to pay us Judge Goodwin. you’re supposed to be a man that honors the court system and believes in it listen to the jury’s enough is enough.

    for me each day that comes will simply be terrible. I had hope in the beginning that I would be paid for what they did to me I have hope that someday even though I lost the ability to work for the rest of my life I could invest some money and make it through but now all hope is gone.

    judge goodwin are you listening to everyone or only to the big medical companies. everyone but them seems to be saying they did wrong. but the stall tactics are sickening. I’ve given up how many more women will give up and die before someone in does the right and law abiding thing

  20. anonymous March 21, 2015 at 9:26 am - Reply

    The juries have spoken judge Goodwin listen to them

  21. anonymous March 21, 2015 at 10:48 am - Reply

    i lost a 17 year marrieage bc of this evil device, my ex wife stays in pain constantly. she has had 4 surgeries while we were married. the last 6 years of our marriage sex was non existent. even though we are divorced i still stand beside her in all her medical ordeals. the divorce was her idea, i didnt want it but she was insistant and went n filed. she said i deserved better, i disagreed, she is a strong woman but this has brought her down n i feel that she is giving up, i hope not, but i fear that she is. All of the women deserve this to be settled, this judge needs to stop playing the games that these companies seem to be playing, put his foot down n give them a deadline. this has been going on far to long. i know we have been fighting it for 5 or 6 years n no end seems to be insight, wake up judge n get these companies on the ball. GOOD LUCK TO ALL

    • Dean March 22, 2015 at 1:51 pm - Reply

      Anonymous what you wrote about you and your wife and your wife decided to go through with a divorce was very touching I’m so glad to read that you still stand by your wife hopefully this is all settled soon and things might change for you and your wife.It must be hard but you are a good man as lots have just got up and left there wives over this horror story but unfourtnitally this story is so true and is still happening I wish the best for you and your wife my wife means the world to me to and hell if I’m going to let this tear us apart thanks for your post.

  22. Mari March 21, 2015 at 11:24 am - Reply

    I agree with Lisa of Florida. We mesh víctims need to be phisically seen by the media en mass so stockholders get the message of nothing else.

  23. Ana March 21, 2015 at 12:36 pm - Reply

    If we could only have ssomeone sponsor a comercial notifying the mesh victims of a specific date, where women could all get together,and picket in their home state, Why aren’t our lawyers thinking of this, obviouly the case are so slowly heard, and pharmaceutical companies, are procrasting to their advantage.

  24. Still Suffering March 21, 2015 at 12:57 pm - Reply

    Big pharma may own the world with their connections to the medical, political and big business, but don’t let them own you! I agree, we must be heard. No one can understand our destroyed lives, our pain like other victims. Write your Congressmen, Senators from your beds. Myself, I pray for Divine intervention as it is the only true way justice will prevail and bodies restored. These people in the whole spectrum of evil will have to answer for their bloodguilt, and to a Judge so supreme and powerful that everyone will know he is real. His judgment will be swift and just. His past promises have been fulfilled. The future is certain when He determines enough is enough. The universal question can man rule himself apart from God will finally be proven. Some will ridicule my faith, that’s ok, I understand. All of this evil and greed has been pervasive since Adam and Eve. But until that time when the Supreme Judge acts, I agree, lets set a date to let the world know how widespread and horrifying this polypropylene plastic monster truly is. The science is out there, the mesh injured are probably in the millions worldwide. Let us protect our children, grandchildren, great grandchildren. This indeed is a very dark period in the history of man for big pharma companies to consider us collateral damage and keep on with big business with no regard for lives destroyed, pain beyond comprehension except for those living it, everyday.

    When will it be Mesh Awareness Day? I am in! I will get to the state capitol any way I can. Sometimes you have to apply for a peaceful protest permit. How do we reach the rest of the iceberg of the mesh injured since we are just the tip?

    • Lisa (Florida) March 21, 2015 at 2:44 pm - Reply

      I totally agree! And its great to hear your ideas. I do believe we have to apply for permits. I will check into that.

      And as for the DATE, I’m open to suggestions. I’m thinking around the middle of May sometime? We need to do this as soon as possible but still allow ourselves enough time to properly prepare. What do you think?

  25. Lisa (Florida) March 21, 2015 at 2:29 pm - Reply

    It’s so good to hear your support and awesome ideas! Ana, great idea about getting sponsors to fund some commercial announcements regarding the date! Great way to spread the word to the masses. I’m willing to do whatever it takes to help everyone get this moving.

    Maybe we can start with a request to Jane to start a topic for the unofficial “National Mesh Awareness Day” so we have a specific place to discuss this further? We could start a Facebook group also? But I feel there is more traffic here and it has a better chance of evolving into something. What do you guys think? I’m open to all your awesome ideas and for the first time in a very long time, I feel HOPE, Thank you! And please feel free to email me, I setup an email specifically for our cause,

    • Mary Pat March 23, 2015 at 1:55 pm - Reply

      National Mesh Awareness day and the date of our protest should be July 13th. The FDA alert regarding the problems mesh causes was issued July 13th, 2011. The FDA revealed the ugly truth. We, the mesh injured, and our family members need to protest and educate the world.

  26. Debbie March 21, 2015 at 4:10 pm - Reply

    Judge Goodwin please read these we are all very sick from the affects of MESH and tired, in my case I’m so sick of worrying about tomorrow and the days to come not knowing when my disability benefits might get cut off as I know it won’t last for ever only two years I’m hoping so and I’m almost a year into it and I’ve been in so much pain and agony for five years due to MESH please end this and have them all settle a decent settlement so we don’t have to at least worry about bills and mortgage”s extra.I know I can’t work again I’ve been told I can’t go back to my job that I loved and worked for 25 years I’m just turning Fifty this year and I’m restricted to what I can and can not do just around the house let alone anything else.

  27. MeshSad March 21, 2015 at 5:44 pm - Reply

    The pain is bad. It’s made life bad. I am fighting pnemonia now too on top of all this. I too lost a dog who was a light of happiness of mine. Living in a bad motel, alone becase I have no monies and live on SSI. Life has stopped. This all HAS TO END! The fat cats at JnJ have to see the plight of all these women and give life back to all!

  28. anonymous March 21, 2015 at 6:53 pm - Reply

    How about we just protest outside of Judge Goodwins building until something happens or someone dies a major story on mesh injuries. All I can do is pray that Jesus comes soon

    • Lisa (Florida) March 21, 2015 at 9:07 pm - Reply

      That would be my choice location also! BUT realistically I don’t think many people could afford to make that trip. I could if thats what it took. If there is enough support, I was thinking about getting some charter buses to get everyone to the courthouse during a Bellwether trial. Just a thought, for now……

      • Sharon March 23, 2015 at 12:01 pm - Reply

        That’s a good idea so maybe they would have to listen.

  29. MeshSad March 21, 2015 at 9:16 pm - Reply

    Lisa: Nothing like a few good men and a lot of pissed off women to get his attention! I’d go if the decision is made.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 5:47 pm - Reply

      🙂 LOVE your way of thinking! I agree!!

  30. ana March 21, 2015 at 11:40 pm - Reply

    I think it is hard for some women to travel. so with a specific date women could protest in their own state capital.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 1:00 am - Reply

      I agree Ana, as much as I would like for all of us to meet in front of the courthouse, it just isn’t possible for most victims. But we’re on the right track! Meeting in our own state capitals seems more practical. Maybe those victims close to WV or anyone who can make the journey can meet there?

  31. Tammy March 22, 2015 at 12:33 am - Reply

    Johnson and Johnson trail WV , July 13….Just a thought.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 1:05 am - Reply

      Great idea Tammy! That sounds perfect! Do you know which trial it is? We might have the risk of the trial being rescheduled but I think its worth the risk. And its on a Monday, I’m not sure if a weekday or weekend is better for most. I’m available any time. What do you think?

      • zoggy (ohio) March 22, 2015 at 3:59 am - Reply

        Good luck trying to get around to protest. I tried that for the Bellew case in March. Had a room, was paying for the posterboards and buttons. Ask anyone from any States esp Ohio to travel to WV to protest before and after dates. NOT ONE PERSON RESPONDED SO I SAID WHY SHOULD I? I JUST OFFERED TO ORGANIZE OHIO AGAIN I WOULD SUPPLY THE POSTERBOARDS GET US A ROOM AT THE CONVENTION CENTER AND THEN RALLY TO THE CAPITOL. I also suggested May 7 Thurs which is also National Prayer Day and that would be the week of Mothers Day weekend. NOT ONE RESPONSE?! So good luck getting anyone to commit. T I think we just want to complain behind out computers cause we don’t want to risk our cases? What cases? If we don’t do anything we will achieve nothing. I said I woukd furnish the boards suggested what to put on them and a date. You all respond lets go to WV? None of you committed to go? So I hate to be a pessimist but I don’t think anyone has the courage to rally in NJ, WV or in your own States? I left an email for you to respond to me multiple times for many months to rally. DOES NO ONE REALLY WANT TO CHANGE THIS COURSE? If we wait too long it will change for us and in a negative direction cause we all are too sick to take 1 day and rally. Someone else can volunteer for Ohio. Ill show up but I will not offer anymore help to organize since for months no one responds.? I DONT UNDERSTAND WHAT IS THE PROBLEM? I wish you all well and pray for each of you but this really pisses me off by your lack of wanting to make change. Does anyone in Ohio want to go protest in Ohio?

        • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 8:44 pm - Reply

          I’m so sorry all your efforts were wasted and I understand how discouraging it can be. Honestly, I’m praying the same thing doesn’t happen again. But, I gotta try my best for myself and all the other victims out there and I would LOVE your support in Ohio! I’ll do everything I can to make it a pleasant experience for you this time. All you have to do is show up 🙂

          This is all still new and has a long way to go before details are discussed, but so far we know it MUST be a quiet, peaceful support gathering with NO negative protest signs or verbalization. Please email me so we can talk more about this, I could sure use your knowledge and advice since you’ve tried to organized this before. I’m willing to do the grunt work!

          • Jan Urban March 24, 2015 at 3:53 am

            I believe that most of us would go to these trials and rallies and protests if our bodies were capable. But I am afraid to say that they just are not physically able to. Maybe if we make our banners out of swatches of fabrics, from our homes, it could be store bought or a piece of fabric from a blanket, dress etc. with a message or expression about mesh written, names, no names, states countries, dates what ever each person wants. using a fabric marker, glitter, embroidered, paint etc. the swatches can vary in a few sizes and can be sent to someone to be joined with others and sewn together. Then those who have the strength can bring us along with them to trials and rallies. The cost is pennies and everyone has stamps. I think this could be accomplished. .

          • Lisa (Florida) March 24, 2015 at 6:51 pm

            Jan YOU are sooo good! I love the idea of receiving a piece of sentimental fabric from each of the victims, especially the ones that aren’t physically able to attend, but what do you think about making a quilt with all the pieces, bringing us all together as one and then we can take the quilt to the courthouse with us to represent ALL the victims connected together with love and support for each other? I think its amazingly symbolic!

  32. Ann C March 22, 2015 at 12:35 am - Reply

    We need justice!!!!!!!!

  33. anonymous March 22, 2015 at 8:09 am - Reply

    I think Judge Goodwin is the key person here. He’s the one calling the shots. All else will be a waste of time. We need every one we van to tell him here ENOUGH . How many people have to come to a point where they wish for death before he does something.

  34. ana March 22, 2015 at 10:24 am - Reply

    We should consider the sunday before trial starts. We want as many women as possible to attend. A working day might become a conflict to the working women, and families.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 8:14 pm - Reply

      I was thinking the same thing Ana, not everyone can make it on a weekday. But, some woman (including me) would rather be there when the trial starts and all parties can see us, including the Plaintiff, she will need all the moral support she can get! So…. maybe we can do a Sunday & Monday so everyone has a better chance to attend? Just a thought……

  35. Tammy March 22, 2015 at 10:54 am - Reply

    Edwards vs Ethicon, July 13, Charleston, WV. I just thought Monday, we would have both parties at court house. I believe we need to take a stand in a peaceful way. We need to be heard.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 8:24 pm - Reply

      Sounds PERFECT Tammy! I think that should be our target date. And yes, this MUST be a quiet, peaceful gathering of support. The word “Protest” shouldn’t be used I agree. It has negative implications when we are looking for a positive result. I’ve gotten various emails saying weekends are good/weekdays are good, so I’m thinking we may need to extend the gathering to Sunday & Monday so everyone has the opportunity to participate and be seen. What are your thoughts?

  36. tammy March 22, 2015 at 11:57 am - Reply

    Butchering some ones life an leaveing something. In them thats made them sick an far awhile you thin your the only. One this has happened. Then you find out there are thousands. What the hell is happening. Here this is my life an my body who do these people they are i guess above the law because om not getting any help here who really knows what out come will but i have faith my God will take care of because this has gone on sense 2010 saw the first mesh add in2011 an all i here is lies something. Surely needs to be done im sick an about. To be homeless they could. Careless beleave me.

  37. tammy March 22, 2015 at 12:41 pm - Reply

    I just left a little. Note about the way im feeling at moment left some words out cause all i have is my phone to do this any way pray we all get the help we need right now im afraid of doctors so im juat living the way i have too when you have no money an your sick from greed what can you do im really getting ready to do something but this mesh mess changed things but i feel like i can’t. Give up i wish there was a support group where im at cause no one rally cares are under stands much

  38. Brenda March 22, 2015 at 2:55 pm - Reply

    Dear Judge Goodwin and the Executives of Boston Scientific,

    My life has been forever changed due to the Boston Scientific Obtryx Sling Vaginal Mesh. My relationship with my loving husband will never be the same again. While he stands beside me and is supportive, I struggle with the pain, guilt, and sorrow. I have searched for an answer and resolution to my pain. I’ve undergone two additional surgeries to remove portions of the mesh, but still endure pain. I’ve gone to two specialists and will soon be going to Johns Hopkins for yet another consultation. All of the specialists’ fees come out of our pocket.

    A settlement is absolutely in order and it needs to be soon. That is the only justice I will ever receive, but no amount of money will return my life to the way it used to be. Nor will it bring back the relationship and loving wife my husband once had. How long must we wait for our justice? Will you have me wait until I have suffered for many years? Where is the swift and fair justice in that?

    Prayers to all who suffer with me.

  39. WomenNeedYourHelp March 22, 2015 at 4:53 pm - Reply

    This why people are not showing up to protest:

    They can’t.

    The majority of women have been told ( or threatened) by their attorneys to not be seen or heard anywhere publicly connected in anyway with mesh or issues surrounding mesh. That’s why you see only about 1% of mesh-injured women commenting on this website.

    The majority read it religiously and depend on the news that Jane Akre provides to maintain some level of hope and sanity. It helps with loneliness and isolation that come with being injured by mesh and pain and dysfunction that come with it.

    Unfortunately, it is the tactics and legal strategies of the mesh manufacturers that require the plaintiffs’ attorneys to require silence from their clients. Even if a case is settled, the details must remain confidential.

    It’s not that women don’t want to protest. Most want to scream from the highest mountain. But they stand to lose the last hope they have to stave off homelessness, receive treatment they can’t afford, or even to feed their kids. It’s a desparate situation for all.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 22, 2015 at 8:07 pm - Reply

      I understand what you’re saying WomenNeedYourHelp, and I agree we are not to speak of the details of our case, BUT we CAN be seen! Even if some of us only hold signs warning other women of the dangers of mesh. Our presence alone is enough to send the message we need. I am not asking anyone or suggesting in any way that we jeopardize the outcome of our cases. Anyone uncomfortable about this can simply BE PRESENT and not say a word. If we stand together, I TRULY believe we can make a positive difference if all parties see us rallying together in support. And this will NOT affect mine or anyone elses case.

      • msm March 23, 2015 at 12:44 am - Reply

        Actually, photographs matched with social media which has already been searched by the defense on each and every case can be more telling that written word. The defense will do whatever they can to make an example of anyone who crosses them.

    • zoggy (ohio) March 29, 2015 at 8:05 pm - Reply

      We are already in this situation. Doing nothing is getting nothing. Doing something brings attention to this travesty. I am not trying to be rude by my comments. Right now most of us have already lost everything. I’m not waiting until I’m dead. There’s not enough money going to go around that will make any of us whole again. The big shots will take their millions in stock and run just like we have already seen. I would hold a peaceful gathering in Ohio. We can wear a sack over our heads and just say nothing. That’s what gets people curious to what the HELL is happening ti the great women of this nation?

  40. Tammy (KY) March 22, 2015 at 7:38 pm - Reply

    I asked many times for people to go to WV and had ladies from Ky to go. Please let me know if any ladies are going July 13th or the Sunday before. We have to stand together and we can be seen. I don’t believe our attys want us to be interviewed. If we don’t make a change ourselves, nobody is going to do it for us. God bless all of us. Guide us…I do believe in Judge Goodwin.

    • Jane Akre March 23, 2015 at 12:55 am - Reply

      July 13th will be Edwards v. Ethicon and I believe I will be there as well. It should be a good case….

      • Lisa (Florida) March 23, 2015 at 10:31 pm - Reply

        Count me in as well 🙂

  41. Tammy March 22, 2015 at 9:12 pm - Reply

    I see there is another Tammy now. I will start putting Tammy (KY) so we can tell the difference. Lisa, I agree…..if we don’t interview it can’t hurt us. We can be seen. If we stand together peacefully, it can’t hurt us. I have been asked to be interviewed by Politico and Atty with commercial for them…I had to say no. None of us wants to harm our cases. We just need to be seen..

  42. Tammy March 22, 2015 at 9:27 pm - Reply

    Please don’t be afraid to post here. You don’t have to use your name or even your personal device. ( computer) This is a safe place. Jane has been around mesh for years. Ive spoken to here many times and my talks have been kept and my identify. If Judge Goodwin doesn’t seen us he can’t help us. I know a lot if women whom are afraid to post. Don’t allow the manafactors to keeobus silent. Blessed, Tammy (KY)

    • Jane akre March 23, 2015 at 10:31 am - Reply

      Tammy- Just FYI, I promise nothing is safe online but I do not share your personal emails… never. I would have to be jailed to do so. Even then……… So, the flip of that argument is that J&J cannot face the tsunami of women and social media shared by you all to others who then share it. It is very bad PR for them…. just my thought. You can post here anonymously with perhaps the state, as some have done. Women are tired of being told to be quiet and compliant. They are mad as hell and not going to take it anymore.. Just my opinion and observation.

      • zoggy (ohio) March 29, 2015 at 8:17 pm - Reply

        RIGHT ON! Thanks Jane cause yes I am tired and sad that so many women want to sit silently by the phone for a verdict. I plan on it not happening because we cant go back and turn back time after our rights are taken away. We need to peacefully be present and be seen. I may be a little pissed off right now but I’m not going to sit in neutral and just idle anymore. Ladies our granddaughters and their daughters, our sisters, mothers etc have been affected. Thousands do not even know what is wrong with them? Its not like we got a recall notice in the mail. I woukd suggest all of you to sign up for the FDA bulletins and get educated on your health. There’s recalls everyday on meds, implants etc. It could make a difference in you or a loved ones life. Now back to the damn mesh………………….sorry still pissed but ready to show up like a lady. 🙂

  43. tammy March 22, 2015 at 11:29 pm - Reply

    Think it is way past that now what the heck is wrong. Here i have a voice here and i can say what i want the mesh was put in my body im not going to hide an suffer in silence any more im afraid to even go back to a dotor right now because they all stck together at this point i dont trust much im mad now i will go down with a fight this has gone on way to long there are alot of wemon having the same problems im having this is just sad it seem like wemon are afraid im sock an mad that o have to feel ths way when six years of my life has been hell who cares right anyway we all have been threw it.

  44. Lisa (Florida) March 23, 2015 at 1:00 am - Reply

    Jane, is there any way we can get a new topic started so we can have a singular place to discuss a peace and support gathering? Perhaps calling it the unofficial “National Mesh Awareness Day” or “National Mesh Victims Support Gathering” whichever you feel is more appropriate or suitable? Thanks again because if it wasn’t for you……. we’d be widely scattered and lost! HUGS

    • Jane akre March 23, 2015 at 10:34 am - Reply

      Yes- I will offer you a section on Page one of Mesh News Desk… This is increasingly becoming YOUR website, not mine…. really. So let’s decide what to call it – Mesh Awareness Movement (Day would commit to one day I think, your thoughts?) , It can be within the Welcome, or the Op-Ed, which can be changed, Your turn,,,, Thoughts?

      • Lisa (Florida) March 23, 2015 at 11:08 am - Reply

        “Mesh Awareness Movement” (or MAM) I love it! It’s perfect, yes MAM! I’m happy to shoulder some of the weight if it helps you and others. I’ll do all I possibly can. I’ll start working on the introduction for the section dedicated to the Mesh Awareness Movement and get it to you ASAP.

        And if anyone has any ideas, comments or suggestions…. PLEASE chime in! This is for ALL of us and your thoughts and opinions are the heartbeat of this movement. Thank you Jane!

      • Mary Pat March 23, 2015 at 2:58 pm - Reply

        Hi Jane and Mesh Sisters and Brothers,

        MAM (Mesh Awareness Movement) is brilliant!

        Jane – Thank you for giving us a place that we can group together and make a difference.

        I propose July 13th as Mesh Awareness Movement Day. July 13, 2011, was the date the FDA released their alert telling the world about the “not rare” problems that mesh causes. How appropriate that we make July 13th the day that the world hears about MESH.

        We, the mesh injured, all know that if not for Lana Keeton, Jane Akre, Aaron Horton Leigh and other mesh injured women who have created internet blogs, the world, for the most part would know NOTHING about mesh. Now we have men like Richard and Bruce and David (sorry if I left anyone out) who are also working hard to educate the world about hernia mesh.

        For those of you who are trying to rally the mesh injured to travel across country or across states to protest, please don’t be discouraged by the lack of response (I, for one, cannot sit at all, so how would I sit on a plane or long car ride, and sadly, I cannot afford to travel). Tragically, you are attempting to rally injured troops. As you know, the mesh injured are broken in every way: physically, emotionally, psychologically and FINANCIALLY! For those who cannot make the trip and for those who are fired up and wanting to let their voice be heard, I suggest that we create a video depicting a photo of each mesh injured person holding a placard that lists “what mesh has destroyed in my life”. If the video is done right and it has a great song in the background (I have one in mind that my husband wrote) I believe the video will go viral – all over the world on Face Book, etc.

        Jane, you know how to get a hold of me. We can talk about this idea.

        • Tammy ( KY) March 23, 2015 at 4:07 pm - Reply

          Wonderful Idea…..the dates are awesome…..July 13th. You will be with us in Spirit Sister. God bless….MAM…..Wonderful…

  45. Jane R March 23, 2015 at 8:21 am - Reply

    I sing the same song too. Loss of income at 50K a year. Had to sell anything of value.

    I didn’t have anything that was of great worth but it was my mother’s things. I have

    nothing left. Living barely paycheck to paycheck. Anxiety attacks at the grocery store

    because I don’t have the money. Can’t afford treatment. Can’t sleep from worry.

    Pain that won’t go away. Feeling like I have the flu all the time. Being in limbo everyday.

  46. anonymous March 23, 2015 at 8:24 am - Reply

    Dear Judge Goodwin,

    people have said that you can not read this because I’m trying to get your favor and my mesh case. I am the original writer of the letter. I do not want you to make any verdict in my favor or am I trying persuade you in the direction on my case. my simple request is I’m asking you to send this back to the states and to the attorneys where these have been filed so that there can be a forward motion on these settlements which are desperately needed.

    anyone can ask the judge to send these cases back to their attorneys I do not want to be involved in a global settlement. I do not believe justice will be handed down in a global settlement and the MDL or whatever they’re called committees are not doing justice to all of those who have been damaged permanently. I have not gone into the specifics of my case I have not told you anything more than simply this judge Goodwin I am running out of time. what hope is there to live in pain everyday what hope is there to live and sadness and losing everything in your life that you ever held dear. these companies and mine AMS will be the direct result of my death is something is not done soon. judge Goodwin I beg of you send these cases back to the attorneys let them handle them only they know our injuries only day no what reasonable and fair award should be given to each person.

    thank you judge Goodwin for listening to me and I pray that you are affair caring and reasonable man who have heard the juries decide for the women time and time again and you know in your heart what must be done and will follow through

    • Betty Jones March 23, 2015 at 9:53 am - Reply

      I have also been afraid of posting anywhere because our lawter say e1 can get them and hold against us.

      Im sick of being alone lost my other best half even though he couldnt know that because i wouldnt let him near me after 4 yrs ago i had revision surgrey and it messed me up inside so bad the i will never have the chance to make love ever again. The dictors say there is no reason why but if everytime yr musecel? Constrict you feel like your giving birth all over again but its tearing you front the front to yr ass u stop trying and cry scream in the shower what did i do the desever this god why why me but now i know there is 70,000 plus the men that got hernia repairs just not the same but damnit the pain and blund rage IS

      • Angry March 23, 2015 at 10:18 pm - Reply

        I do not feel I am alone on this thought any longer. After being told for so long to pretty much shut up, say nothing, post nothing because it will or can be used against us ! Wait hold on here ladies WE DID NOTHING WRONG ! WE were the ones that were lied to from the get-go. These big shots knew just what the hell they were doing but make a buck buy using us as lab rats. USE IT AGAINST US ? If we sit back any longer its not going to make a difference because one of two things, we are going to get sicker and weaker and that is just what they want, second the longer this plays out with out media attention these settlements are going to be so low balled and we will all be left broke, sick and alone. We need to be in front of that federal court house in WV along with everyone and anyone we can beg to stand there with all of us. I always thought in front of the CNN building but we need to hit where its taking place and SOON !

        • Angry March 23, 2015 at 10:26 pm - Reply

          I think we all need to give them a run for what was wrongly done to each and everyone of us, win, lose or draw because it sure is getting us no where with tape slapped over out mouth. If it was not for Jane each and everyone of us would be in total darkness on this entire MDL. We need to stand with her. If July 13th is the next trial. Florida count me in.

  47. Aaron Leigh March 23, 2015 at 12:06 pm - Reply

    I am always so saddened to hear another true story of injury and loss due to mesh implant. This is the norm. I hope Judge Goodwin understands the severity of injury and loss.

  48. Sharon March 23, 2015 at 12:13 pm - Reply

    how long is it going to take they know this is bad and women are suffering and our sex lives are going down the drain,people are breaking up.Lives are being tore apart.We should get some help and not many years after most women are already in their 50’s and 60’s so it’s time we get help.

  49. tammy March 23, 2015 at 12:41 pm - Reply

    This is really getting. So bad now i just found you Jane a couple. Of months ago iwish i would have found this at least i dont feel alone any more there thousands. Of us suffering. What heck is going on here something. Needs to be done right now i have sufferd enough some body needs to help us i do not understand. This at all these adds looking for more victims. Is really getting. To me so bad imy depression an pain animals. Get treated better where is the justice. Here please. God for give memaybe if i would have prayed more this would have not happen to me my personal life is in hell i can’t. Do much but im still praying i just would like to find out what is really goong on here they need to stop them adds there on my phone an tv what for no one that i. Can see is getting any help lies is all i here while my body just keeps going down because. Im afraid to do anything else .ok im going to hope somebody. Can find out what is really going on here i feel. It now for sure we need to be told the truth this is America. Right.

    • Jan Urban March 23, 2015 at 1:18 pm - Reply

      Compliant to what. Has the the Judge issued a gag order. The silence will kill us all. The only conversations that would hurt your cases would be. “Went out for a morning jog, 5 miles” “Planted the potato’s and peas this morning” Like any of us could possibly do that. Hell just to get a glass of water is sheer torture. Mesh injured are not your typical injury case where your back has been injured or neck. It’s our whole body. Lawyers have got it wrong for the pain and suffering the mesh injured live with 24/7 are incapable of doing most anything, our injuries our that severe. We just can’t do anything anymore and our conversations on social media say this. “Special Circumstances” do not apply to the mesh injured. Ridiculous!

  50. Doris Dalbey March 23, 2015 at 12:53 pm - Reply

    As a mother of a daughter who has suffered from this horrendous disability from the mesh implant that has ruined her life I find it so unsettling that she can’t receive help. She lost her business,home and herself from PAIN. She went from a lively fifty year young woman to a very sick disintegrating woman begging for help.many operations,pain implants,pain medicine which she hates to take have to be begged for from various state,federal and personal friends. She will have to have this care for the rest of her life.Why?? Because of GREED nothing more than GREED. Thank GOD for Angel Flights, the pilots and organizers that fly her to her Dr. For surgeries and check ups. We pray for her wellness that comes off and on,she can not make plans ahead of time because she never knows if she will be well enough to go or do ANYTHING,even food shoping.and if she does it wears her down for days.She was always the LIFE of everything and now she pushes herself still but suffers for it. Please help these women. Singed,Karens Mom

  51. gina March 23, 2015 at 1:15 pm - Reply

    i am begining to think it would just be easier to kill myself and put me out of my misery. no one is listening to our

    issues, and how it has affected our minds. depression has taken over and i feel i have no life left in me.

    • Angry March 24, 2015 at 2:36 pm - Reply

      Gina I fully understand your thinking and have been there myself many times BUT then who wins? The big pharm wins by beating you down. Our family and friends would be the ones left to suffer and left to fight the injustice that was wrongly done to everyone of us. NOPE not me, I refuse to let this mesh situation take me any more.This is not saying that I can handle the pain and all of the other health related rotten things that go on with my body that I am forced to live the rest of my life with, I am having major issues coping with it all. Just the other night as I was trying to fall asleep AFTER taking a cocktail for my nightly medication of pain meds, Neurontin, antidepressants and a few others to knock me out, and in spite of the meds the pain was so bad all I could do is curl up in a ball and cry myself to sleep. How wonderful….So Gina don’t ever give up ! Get ANGRY even though the anger can eat you up along with the rest of this mess but channel it into motivation to WIN. Hang in there!

      • Betty March 24, 2015 at 4:25 pm - Reply

        Gina we all are with you on your feelings as e1 of us have them too and if anyone writting or reading these living testimonies say they dont then they are the ones lieing to us and themselves.

        I wrote bout the reasons im still here but if not foe my 10yr furry girl id be dead, and now i think you assholes almost made me take my own life for money and now TODAY I FEEL ALIVE!!!!

        Now im fighting to take their money, as we are living breathing human beings, we have 4legged childern and 2 legged childern that need us as we need to keep fighting for ourselves as best as we can if theres a time in any of our lives we need womens right it is now.WE ARE NOT GINNYPIGS FOR LARGE COMPANIES!!!

  52. suffering and pain March 23, 2015 at 2:03 pm - Reply

    I don’t even know where to start. I to have AMS mesh.

    My pain began the day I had my surgery in 2011. I thought it was normal to be in such bad pain after having mesh placed but I soon learned that something was terribly wrong. I began to have severe butt , hip, and thigh pain, it has not gone away . I was sent to a neurologist for nerve damage testing. I have left side nerve damage. The person who ran my test who was a neurologist says my god your not feeling me shock you i said no. He tried the test on himself to make sure it was working. It was. I was then sent to a pain specialist. Who started me on pain pills and steroid injections.

    I have spent several weeks at a time in the hospital off and on due to bad vaginal infections that won’t get better. I then started having trouble breathing when I would get the infections. I thought I was going to die, I still feel like that. I’m only 43 and I feel 90. Sex is out of the question the pain is so severe that not even the pain meds work.

    I have constant bleeding from the infections.

    I have been to physical therapy and it does not help. Me pelvis keeps poping out of place from me favoring one side. My mental health is not ok I struggle daily crying and depressing thoughts. I started to see a psychologist.

    I applied for ssdi and was denied its in the appeal process.

    I see a surgeon april 23 . I’m hoping he will go in and see what’s wrong.

  53. Nicole March 23, 2015 at 2:09 pm - Reply

    This is a great idea. I too would like to write a letter to Judge Goodwin. Will it reach him?

    • Jane Akre March 24, 2015 at 10:45 am - Reply

      I will bring this long essay to the attention of his court.

  54. suffering and pain March 23, 2015 at 2:13 pm - Reply

    Sorry my phone did not let me finish writting.

    I see the surgeon april 23 . I have been in to see him several times. Each time he does testing and requires more records. I’m terrified of the out come. I have perirectal lymph node swelling. I can feel the mesh pinching and pulling and it pokes me like knives. I just wish it would sll go away. I lay in bed day after day thinking it would be better to be dead then live a life like this.

    I have four children and two grandsons and my husband to live for.

    My case was filed in 2013 and I doubt I will ever get a resolution .

    I pray for all my fellow sisters. You have a friend in me. Gid bless you all

  55. Lee March 23, 2015 at 2:34 pm - Reply




    : a person who has been attacked, injured, robbed, or killed by someone else

    : a person who is cheated or fooled by someone else

    : someone or something that is harmed by an unpleasant event (such as an illness or accident)


    : a violent physical or verbal attack

    : a concerted effort (as to reach a goal)


    : an outrageous violation


    : to harm or damage (someone or something)


    : to cause severe damage to (the body of a person or animal)

    : to ruin the beauty of (something) : to severely damage or spoil (something)


    : physical or mental damage or injury : something that causes someone or something to be hurt, broken, made less valuable or successful, etc.


    : to cause (something) to be unable to work in the normal way

    : to make (someone) unable to do something (such as use part of the body) in the usual way


    : involving illegal activity : relating to crime

    : morally wrong


    : physical harm that is done to something or to someone’s body

    : emotional harm that is done to someone

    : problems that are caused by a mistake, wrong action, etc. : bad or harmful effects on a situation, a person etc


    : something that causes strong feelings of worry or anxiety


    : fear or nervousness about what might happen


    : having a serious medical condition that causes a person to feel very sad, hopeless, and unimportant : suffering from mental depression


    : being in a less than perfect or whole condition: as

    a : disabled or functionally defective


    : to become different

    : to make (someone or something) different

    : to become something else


    : to break a rule or law usually to gain an advantage at something

    : to take something from (someone) by lying or breaking a rule

    : to prevent (someone) from having something that he or she deserves or was expecting to get


    : to cause (someone) to feel that she or he no longer belongs in a particular group, society, etc.


    : separated into parts or pieces by being hit, damaged, etc.

    : not working properly

    • Jan March 23, 2015 at 3:26 pm - Reply

      It’s very hard to read all these stories of women’s broken lives, pain and suffering. I see some of my pain in each one of their posts. I don’t understand how they can read these and not try to help us. Are they waiting and hoping that we will just die off if the wait long enough & I’m sure some will. I have been suffering for ten years now and my attorneys just tell me these things take time!!!!! In my case it’s all there in black and white…. Very sad for us all!

    • Tammy ( KY) March 23, 2015 at 3:56 pm - Reply

      Amen… wonderfully said. Thank you…..

    • Mary Pat March 24, 2015 at 9:59 pm - Reply

      Lee, you summed up life with mesh. Well said. Thank you.

    • Anonymous March 24, 2015 at 10:44 pm - Reply

      Thank you Lee for explaining exactly what has happened to us.

  56. anonymous March 23, 2015 at 3:08 pm - Reply

    Love it Lee!!!

  57. Jan Urban March 23, 2015 at 3:22 pm - Reply

    If it was not for Jane Akre and the invaluable information she provides and the people she has brought together over the years. I would not have been able to find the Medical help I needed to rid my body of mesh. Knowledge is power. The sharing of information, experiences, can only help a victim of mesh. Our injured bodies are in a class not ever seen before and a lawyer is correct in gagging his clients in most cases. But I strongly disagree with this advise for a mesh injured. I am Mesh free because of Jane’s web site and the information and people she researches and the trials she covers. I knew to not have a partial removal, I knew when within 48 hours that infection could set in. I can not thank her enough for being there for me and so many others. You can not be silent with mesh it will kill you. That one comment you may express maybe the missing piece a mesh injured person needs to help them find their way out of mesh hell. Love you Jane Akre XXOO

    • Jan Urban March 23, 2015 at 3:47 pm - Reply

      The Honorable Judge Goodwin, I have not been able to control my sorrowful bouts of crying since my mesh removal. The anguish and despair that I continue to feel despite a successful mesh removal is for all the women left behind that are tortured by mesh. I am one of the lucky ones. These women need help now. Jan Urban

  58. Ana March 23, 2015 at 7:42 pm - Reply

    Jan thank you, for your words of wisdom, I wish we could get this from the responsible parties.

    Jane also, thank you for, giving us the opportunity to vent our painful frustrations.

  59. Another mesh victim March 23, 2015 at 8:51 pm - Reply

    i do not understand the justice system when it allows large cop rotations and attorneys to prolong these mesh cases from coming to closure. I find it incredible that in 2015, in America we are not dealing with this in a way that supports the victims. I one of the lucky ones. I only had 2 surgeries, however The mesh has prevented me from any intimacy with my husband. Ever since my mesh implant, I complained of pain and was told over & over it was in my head. I still have allot of good years left in my life, but they will be lived without intercourse with my husband. I also resent that with the delays in the settlements, the attorneys will still receive their 40%. I truly believe that their fees should be reduced in an effort to give the victims the majority of ALL settlement funds!

  60. MeshSad March 23, 2015 at 10:14 pm - Reply

    I feel like pelvis has been hit with a sledgehamme. God help all on this site. I wish all the best possible!

  61. Betty March 23, 2015 at 11:12 pm - Reply

    It was on the news that talks are in the works on the 3 big companies.

    They are talking about settlements because of all the big jury settlements and when its on tv in the midwets you know its happening:) we all need to keep our heads up even on most days ladies i would rather stop my pain forever.

    But i have my furry kids that need me to stay here on earth to see them across.

    They kiss me when im in so much pain i cant pee or move and they dont laugh when i wet my pants and cry myself to sleep from being so alone, they let me know im alone but not totally alone They are here if nothing else but to love me no matter what is wrong withy sad broken body. Sorry in that depressed and crying mood tonight and this fricking cold and warm days are killing my legs and hips..

    Ladies we have to love eachother and give.strenght to eachother and Jan ty for opening yr door to 1000–70,000.

  62. Bec Canterbury March 23, 2015 at 11:30 pm - Reply

    I use a different last name on here but I do agree. I go to Morgantown April 8th to start a new process. My Dr there, said last week, and used the exact words “they mutilated you and you have your lawyers call me, this is horrible you have had to wait this long, go through what you have and nothing has been acomplished.”

    • Jan Urban March 24, 2015 at 3:24 am - Reply

      I just know the information that is on this website is and has been invaluable to the welfare of any mesh injured person. The victims who read and those who share are Intelligent, compassionate, capable, problem solving people. These companies know this and are threatened by the amount of research, thought, data, facts that we have found to help heal our bodies and minds from their defective, destructive mesh products. They have nothing to defend anymore. The Science and Medical Communities have caught up and on and are moving along with their findings to help us with the devastating effects that mesh has caused our bodies. So it is like a name calling, you did this, and he said this defense which has nothing to do with mesh and it defects and the damage it has caused. They are losers. That is my view from the last few trials and Judge Goodwin sees this as well. Who’s to say who can put a stop to this. It is time for our day in court 70,000 cases or 1. Let’s get moving with our due process.

  63. Teaguefarm March 23, 2015 at 11:36 pm - Reply

    I don’t believe we really have anyone who cares about our health. Soon many will give up and then maybe it will matter.

  64. anonymous March 23, 2015 at 11:50 pm - Reply

    Ditto! Lost job to mesh. So of course lost wages. Top that off with so much spent on medical treatment causes more anxiety that adds to the pain. Not financially ready to retire but forced to.

  65. Traci Rizzo March 24, 2015 at 12:51 am - Reply

    How do you write an open letter !?????? I’m ready to do the same. This has been the worst day yet after learning some facts from this travesty they call justice !!! I am an AMS victim as well and completely understand where she is coming from !!! Things are getting bad by the day for us in similar but very personal ways !!! I’m baffled in the pure surreal hell this has caused me and my family. I only thank The Lord above it hasn’t taken my life which it nearly literally did !!!! I would love to come face to face with these manufacturers and so called drs that helped develop and train thousands to damage us then profit from the manufacturer and then set up themselves as expert removal specialists. If that’s not a conflict of interest then none exists !!! I have been abused , patronized and used like a human piggy bank and I’m full well tired of it. I know more than I wish I knew !! Has anyone not considered that many of us have nothing much left to loose ?? I’m very reasonable and I’m being absolutely insulted at the greed of others !!! Someone with some guts and integrity needs to take hold of this situation !! Time is our true currency and it’s running out !! I could’ve never imagined what a devastating horror this would be !! There is collateral damage it’s our kids and families !!! I’m a hair away from being disabled and homeless due to this !! For every tragedy there’s a mound if money to be made by the greedy !! Shame on them all !!

    • Jane Akre March 24, 2015 at 10:42 am - Reply

      This is essentially a very long letter to the judge. Thank you.

  66. Traci Rizzo March 24, 2015 at 2:48 am - Reply

    I’ve suffered and am bankrupt in every way possible since 2007 !!! SUFFERED !! Yet master has gotten paid millions explain that ? Corrupt !!

  67. Sara March 24, 2015 at 5:35 am - Reply

    2 Weeks ago I got what felt like the biggest slap in the face there ever could be. After seeing a Urologist (who did my second surgery), my Gastroenterologist and a Surgeon, I have been told that when I am ready, they will refer me to a pain specialist, but they would not even consider doing surgery. My first surgery, my lower bowel got torn, a nightmare I don’t want to go through again. The second surgery I lost 25% of my bladder but the sling was removed on the right side. But now the mesh has gotten intertwined in my lower intestines. I can not believe that something that seemed to be the answer to my problems, is now basically killing me. I just don’t get it, AMS has settled with (from what the notice from my lawyer said) 20,000 women who have either had no problems or minor problems. I really think they are just waiting to see who will die before they make an offer so they can save money. I need this resolved. I want to pay all the bills that have piled up so my name is clear when I die. Yes, I say die, because that is what is going to happen because of this sling and I don’t feel that it’s fair. I have kept up with Judge Godwin and I know he can’t force them to settle, but he needs to put the pressure on because this isn’t a joke, this is my life which I now feel is going downhill quickly. I don’t want to live on drugs, but I now know that it is going to be my only option. I work at a men’s prison, how am I going to work when I am taking drugs. Please Judge Godwin, help us!

  68. anonymous March 24, 2015 at 8:21 am - Reply

    Dear Betty,

    your furry friends will never leave you or desert you. I lost my only friend on Saturday March 21st. she is going to happen I’ll never see her in this lifetime again. I thought the pain in my body was terrible but compared to my broken heart its nothing. if I had my settlement and move away from this terrible place and load and try to find the sunshine and the happiness I know she would want me to have.

    .if I had some money perhaps I’d have hope that someday the pain and sadness in my heart and then my body would go away. but I think my body was first broken and mutilated and now my heart is broken. Judge Goodwin where is the justice. where is the hope that our judicial system is supposed to give us. I have no hope anymore only sadness and pain. and now I’ve lost the last love of my life that has not left me Orioles at me or hates me because I’ve been mutilated and lied to by the doctors and the medical companies. I am so alone and my heart is breaking. if sadness pain in a broken heart is all I have then I pray God take me home. hang on to your pets Bettywill be gone before you know it

    .for this world I do not want to be in anymore. it is not my world it is the world of the devil.

  69. anonymous March 24, 2015 at 8:28 am - Reply

    Dear Betty,

    your furry friends will never leave you or desert you. I lost my only friend on Saturday March 21st. she is going to happen I’ll never see her in this lifetime again. I thought the pain in my body was terrible but compared to my broken heart its nothing. if I had my settlement and move away from this terrible place and try to find the sunshine and the happiness I know she would want me to have.

    .if I had some money perhaps I’d have hope that someday the pain and sadness in my heart and then my body would go away. but I think my body was first broken and mutilated and now my heart is broken. Judge Goodwin where is the justice. where is the hope that our judicial system is supposed to give us. I have no hope anymore only sadness and pain. and now I’ve lost the last love of my life that has not left me every one else criticizes me or hates me because I’ve been mutilated and lied to by the doctors and the medical companies. I am so alone and my heart is breaking. if sadness pain in a broken heart is all I have then I pray God take me home. hang on to your pets Bettywill be gone before you know it. husbands children friends don’t understand the pain we’re in each day.

    .for this world I do not want to be in anymore. it is not my world it is the world of the devil. no one wants to help us except the few special people.

    judge Goodwin we’re not asking you to rule on the cases just send them back so we can move forward in order that all of these are taken care of within a year. it can be done but like all children they will not do anything until you make them. niece companies must do something before we all die from broken hearts and bodies

  70. Angry March 24, 2015 at 10:36 am - Reply

    If there is anyone in Florida that wants to be out side of the federal court house in WV on July 13th 2015 I have a idea. If we get enough people from our state that WILL go, I am willing to rent a van and have pick up locations but I would need help with the fuel cost. Does this sound like it would work? If one person from each state would do the same I think someone one just might pay attention to us. Please lets communicate we can do this ! As hard as it will be on most of us it will be worth every effort even if it is just for a two night stay.

    • Jane Akre March 24, 2015 at 10:38 am - Reply

      Where are you coming from?

      • Angry March 24, 2015 at 12:26 pm - Reply

        Hi Jane I am in the Florida Keys and willing to get a van if there were enough people to fill it up. I would make pick-up locations along the Florida Turnpike, as many stops as it take ! Even is someone can not help with the cost they are still welcome. Its TIME!!!! As far a hotels I have not got to that yet, one thing at a time right? Jane let me know what you think and maybe we can get other women in other states to do the same. This might be our chance. Jane you know how to get in touch with me if you need to,

        • Mesh Nightmare March 24, 2015 at 12:54 pm - Reply

          To ‘Angry’…..I am in SWF. I can meet up with you on I75 for 7/12 & 7/13 MAM RALLY.

          • Angry March 24, 2015 at 10:14 pm

            Nightmare I am going to try if anyone who is injured and what to go, lets communicate, get names, numbers ect and try to meet at rest stops along the Florida Turnpike. See how many really want to go, get a head count, then we all can move onto the next steps.

          • Lisa (Florida) March 24, 2015 at 10:33 pm

            I’m planning on going also and car pooling sounds great! Email me,

        • Kitty March 24, 2015 at 5:52 pm - Reply

          Angry——I wish I lived in Florida or on the route to WV. I hope you get some response to your offer to get the Van and pick up ladies.

          • Angry March 24, 2015 at 8:06 pm

            Kitty I wish you did too. This will not be easy for me but in my heart I feel we are going to run out of chances and or time. For myself I have to do it and second for ever person who has to be living this way. I am going to ask my family and friends to please try to join me, all of them come from up north.

    • Lisa (Florida) March 24, 2015 at 7:02 pm - Reply

      I had the same thought, and I’m in! Email me please 🙂 meshaction@mail,com

    • zoggy (ohio) March 25, 2015 at 5:58 pm - Reply

      @ Lisa it woukd be hard to rent a van especially if we can get family members and friends to show up too. Does everyone want to do it on that date? I think the longer we wait they may come up with some other ideas to prolong. I suggested for Ohio that we meet at a hotel close by where we could walk with our signs. May 7 th is National Prayer and Mothers Day weekend. If we rally on the 7 which is a Thurs when lawmakers are working we could get more attention. Do it from 11 until 2 to hit the lunch time rush. I would have the posters boards ready and we can bring whatever we want to the room I can reserve at the nearby hotel. I woukd also notify news channels 4,6, and 10. Everyone can go home after that or get your room reserved. Women and men and as many family and friends who can make it. Call me at. 937-666-2077 leave your name, number, how many signs you need and I will call you back with the details. We can reuse these signs for WV and NJ. If someone else wants to lead Ohio that’s ok with me I just want to get our story out.

  71. anonymous March 24, 2015 at 11:07 am - Reply

    Gina, your words are my thoughts too. There is no hope for a settlement. Why continue to suffer with no hope. At least in Heaven I will be at peace and have no more pain.

  72. Mesh Nightmare March 24, 2015 at 12:58 pm - Reply

    Jane, Please share my email with ‘Angry’ and forward hers to me so we can communicate about ‘MAM RALLY’ in WV in July.

    • Angry March 24, 2015 at 8:37 pm - Reply

      Jane if you could pass my email onto anyone who wants to try to plan from Florida I will keep checking it, Looking forward to talking to you mesh nightmare.

  73. Anonymous March 24, 2015 at 1:35 pm - Reply

    Judge Goodwin: please read these comments from all the women that have suffered and the many that have not responded that are in the same situations! How can companies that have caused such damage get away with this for so long? They have not been forced to settle so they can continue to dowhatthey want to do! Why has a deadline not been set? This is not a third world nation, this is the United States of America! Why is no one standing up for what is right or standing up for all of us suffering women?? Please help, so many of us are on the verge of bankruptcy!

  74. anonymous March 24, 2015 at 7:11 pm - Reply

    Gina and Betty now why these days are so hard for me. I lost my fury 4 legged friend and companion. The painful days are even longer and more lonely now. I am trapped in my home all alone and in pain. Thank you AND for taking everything.

  75. Tammy ( KY) March 24, 2015 at 8:05 pm - Reply

    Angry, that is a great idea. I live in Ky. If anyone wants to carpool please post. Let’s go Ladies. They have enough Hotels in Charleston, WV.

    • Angry March 24, 2015 at 8:39 pm - Reply

      WAY TO GO TAMMY ! I think we all might be onto a plan !

  76. MeshSad March 24, 2015 at 9:26 pm - Reply

    Looking at the list on the WV site of names of all of the plaintiffs…How come a lot of plaintiffs’ cases have been cancelled/closed etc. ?? Does someone know?

    • Angry March 24, 2015 at 10:06 pm - Reply

      Mesh Sad I noticed that myself and also looks like a lot are going back to the state what all this means?

      • Lisa (Florida) March 24, 2015 at 10:30 pm - Reply

        Can you tell me which list you’re looking at? Can you post the link please, I’d like to see it. Thank you

        • MeshSad March 25, 2015 at 12:53 am - Reply
          • msm March 25, 2015 at 7:54 am

            Maybe I’m not seeing the same list. The Ethicon list shows less than 500 cases closed out of over 27,000 and only a few closed in 2015. Same with court transfer orders.

            A year after ENDO announced their AMS settlement, only about 1600 cases have been closed in total out of 20,000. Those are not all because they were settled. Progress? I don’t think so.

  77. anonymous March 25, 2015 at 8:11 am - Reply

    that’s because the amount that they are offering to settle for are insane! how can you take someone’s job away that would have netted them in the end $500,000 and they’re offering maybe $40,000. by the time you pay your attorney and the medical bills you’re left with nothing.

    which person in their right mind would settle for that? we need justice. car accident victims workmans comp victims excetera are treated better than we have been. like I said in my open letter we are entitled to lost wages and pain and suffering. no one is listening to the juries, which is sickening because our jury system is supposed to be the best way for us all to get a fair settlement according to what the average person on the street would say. are any of these companies listening. I’m sure somewhere in a conference room there saying oh my gosh what did we do where did we get ourselves into such a mess and how can we get out of this the cheapest way possible. if I have to die first and let my family carry on this fight I will do that before I accept 1% of what I should get. again I am NOT greedy I just want to be paid back for what they took from me. even criminals have to pay restitution when they hurt you. this has been a crime on humanity and it sickens me that anybody with thank but just because we are women will say Oh its okay I’ll take whatever you want to give me. NO!! I’m willing to be reasonable I’m willing to talk to them and work it out but we can’t even have a discussion yet because all these cases are stuck in West Virginia under judge Goodwin’s control. if nothing is done our deaths will be on the heads of the companies and judge Goodwin. I have talked to my family and told them should anything happen and I die I want them to get ahold of Jane a story will break and everyone will know that AMS took my life. come on judge goodwin are you listening do something that will make history not only for you but for every woman who has been damaged by these companies. as I said these so called committees are only using stall tactics to hold out as long as I can before they have to pay us. they are hoping that we die or give up or become so desperate that we have to take whatever money we can get it. I would rather die than let them take one more thing from me.

  78. zoggy (ohio) March 25, 2015 at 5:34 pm - Reply

    Ladies we all need to rally in WV and at our States capitol buildings. Because J &J is so big I was told it will take years to bring them down. So we have to make the news. I suggest we go to NJ for the shareholders meeting, going to WV and rally, protest at our States capitol building and even do a you tube video. Ladies if we want to be heard we better get off our kiesters no matter how sick (we can help each other) and rally. This sitting here posting is just not enough. Jane how can we get this organized? I have offered to help pay for posters, buttons get a room to coordinate the rally but I cannot get one woman to commit to our events. I’m not sure what its going to take? You would think we would have woman crawling out of the woodwork to protest. Ladies if you are afraid it will hurt your case we may not be here to see a dime. SO COME ON AND COMMIT. I will be in WV and NJ and I will coordinate for Ohio capitol rally. WHO IS IN IT TO WIN IT???????!!!!!!!!!

    • Lisa (Florida) March 25, 2015 at 7:27 pm - Reply

      Zoggy, not sure if you saw or read my numerous replies to your posts, but please email me so we can start planning a peaceful MAM gathering. I have committed myself to be in WV on July 12th & 13th, from Florida and I’m willing to car pool with someone or drive myself. Also, Jane will be posting a section soon, dedicated to organizing MAM gatherings. You have great enthusiasm and if you want to organize a gathering in Ohio in May….. the MAM page will be the place to start! Post your email on that page as the contact for Ohio, along with the date, time and location of the gathering and any additional details you feel are relevant and helps encourage other victims to come together in peace and support without the threat of compromising their cases.

      • zoggy (ohio) March 29, 2015 at 8:28 pm - Reply

        Ok Lisa just got down to your reply. Sorry in quite a mood today reading all this. We are all victims.

  79. tammy March 25, 2015 at 6:30 pm - Reply

    This is so sad my life means nothing called a funding company because im in need for help to get better this has draged out so long the person told me that i could not get one because i had gotten. One before they are only going to settle these cases for low because the government is involved duh i kind of always new that im lied to all the time they could Careless weather i live. Are die i am so fed up right now i wanted to believe. So bad that i would get justice. Not going to happen i know i can’t. Fight the government so sad im done.

  80. tammy March 25, 2015 at 7:03 pm - Reply

    Jane thank you for letting. Me vent on here but now i know my life means nothing i just so sick that my life has been threw hell but i have all ways had to be strong. But i dont know how to fight the government it can do what it wants an it is happening i really. Need. To try an go on with my life an stop thinking im going to get help caise it’s. Not going to happen there will be no help for me

  81. anonymous March 25, 2015 at 7:04 pm - Reply

    first of all ladies and gentlemen I’m glad that you all want to rally in West Virginia I think that’s where the solution is. but let’s remember ladies and gentlemen this isn’t just about J&J AMS or one certain company. yes I wrote the open letter because I am frustrated with AMS promising to settle and then offering us not even enough to cover our lost wages,medical or much at all.

    but Tammy remember this I have heard many many rumors that are not true. as with anything like this people all have their own opinions but don’t give up dear. if you have family if you have a husband a significant other or someone to hang on for please do that do it for yourself if you have to.

    I am fighting major depression because after my fourth surgery medical bills are coming in I’ve lost a beloved friend my marriage is gone my friends are out doing what they’re doing having their own life and I’m in trapped in my home everyday. so yes I’m asking Judge Goodwin to figure out a solution so that we can go back to these companies and start working with them. but if all you companies are monitoring this hear this I am asking no less than any other person would be in my situation who has lost wages and has had pain and suffering. you can never pay me enough for what you have taken from me but at least let’s talk in reasonable terms. wages and pain and suffering I think that’s fair. now I’m sure this won’t get me anywhere but at least it shows that I am willing to work towards a good agreement. a fair agreement and ladies isn’t that what we all want. we need our doctor bills paid we really shouldn’t even have to pay for attorney fees but we will have to. we’re all grown ups but this is just insane what they are forcing us women to go through.

    please judge Goodwin and God work this out!!!!

  82. tammy March 25, 2015 at 7:36 pm - Reply

    I feel so defeated. I was on the phone all day tryining to get help even if they do give anything. To me it will not not be enough to get me out of this the layers an the funding people will get all of what i get iys all lies they started out telling us they would. Help but i do not see that happening it has been way to long now i think i have finally woke up to all this insanity i got to find peace some how this suffering is absolutely killing the drugs that was given to me for my pain helped for a little while but stoped. It was hell getting off them that has been a year now once again they could careless this is noting but the devil an i wish i could just wake up an say its just a nightmare. No noe should have to suffer six years for any reason. Thay are getting by with. It Jane. Has helped. By letting me vent here i dont care what they think about writing. On here…!!!!!!

  83. tammy March 25, 2015 at 8:07 pm - Reply

    I hate this phone but its all i got i was trying to say i was put on pain meds that. Helped me a little. While but stoped i went threw hell getting off of them now i just tare my stomach. Up with advil when i kust can not take it anymore all of the hindred of dollors i spent fixing my teeth went bad too do not have money for that i do not even want to go anywhere. I look nits with one tooth. Hanging in my mouth an they want me to keep lessening. To the lies please. God help me threw this crazy night mare animals get treated. Better this was supost make lfe better if im being punished for something i have played for what ive done

    • kitty March 26, 2015 at 2:34 am - Reply

      Sorry” I didn’t mean us victims. I guess u didn’t get it.

  84. tammy March 25, 2015 at 9:39 pm - Reply

    I can not turn back the hands of time this is real it’s happening i mnot going to get the help i so desperately. Need this is going to drag out for along time to come if only they would. Have just been truthful im all ready sickhow can they get bu with this

  85. kitty March 25, 2015 at 10:12 pm - Reply


  86. tammy March 25, 2015 at 10:37 pm - Reply

    Lol i don’t thinl anybody is going to pay off big an it’s. Not any time soon that is for sure all lies…!!!!

  87. tammy March 25, 2015 at 10:43 pm - Reply

    These. Mesh adds on TV why don’t. They stop this so crazy when no one is getting. Any help six year of lies so sick of this …..!!!!!!

  88. tammy March 25, 2015 at 11:05 pm - Reply

    I’m. Not going to let these people tarment me any more im done they know what they did buchard these wemon an tell us towait for years im done in the moring im calling an telling th i dont want there damn money there all full of it i will live out the rest of my life in pain i dont care but i be damn if i here another lie from her an them be rud to be if you fire them an not hire any one else i wonder what happens greed….!!!!!

  89. MeshSad March 25, 2015 at 11:13 pm - Reply

    Settlement fndng. wold not help me as I have not had mesh removed. Pfffft. I have no monies to have it removed.

  90. tammy March 26, 2015 at 2:49 am - Reply

    I had mine put in an removed it dont matter there is more going on here than.we know wakeing up to all of it its bad enuff that this happen to us an these adds that make you think there doing something. But nothing is happening really this is pur hell for me im not doing it anymore ive got to find some other way i dont even want there damn money anymore im so poor anyway. What. difference will it make now im so beet down. Now my god will leftmeup dont need these evil people any more for what will not put my self threw this madness anymore god please pertect me that’s. All i have my kids have watched me go threw this mesh mess enuff. Done good luck once again greed i want to get away. From all of it an rud people But let me say this Jane thank you for letting us vent here its so funny that the people that Helped me get to this point knew who you was but i just. Found you two months ago but keep up your good work i just want this to go away my kids need me i was dumped. By the man i was with because of all my pain any way life is just a journey. Anyway i want this to go away now.need to find some other way to help myself an try to get back to living some how because there is no help here they have money an there health

  91. Mesh Nightmare March 28, 2015 at 3:33 pm - Reply

    Bellwether Trials

    Updated 3/27/2015

    The trial in Edwards v. Ethicon, Inc., et al., 2:12-cv-09972, has been rescheduled from July 13, 2015 to August 24, 2015, at 8:30 a.m.


    • zoggy (ohio) March 29, 2015 at 8:36 pm - Reply

      Maybe they moved the date out of respect for the FDA cause its the date in 2011 when they finally responded to our cries. Yea good one J & J lawyers for prob asking the date to be moved cause they prob are reading these posts and asked to be rescheduled? I told you ladies they are going to do everything to postpone and prolong. I say we keep the date July 13 and rally in our States? Or peaceful gathering whatever anyone wants to call. It cant be anything if we do not commit. I will post Ohio info on MAM page. I love all of you ladies and we have to stick together and whoever cant make it just tell me what you want us to represent in your honor. Birds of a feather flock together……….

  92. worried daughter April 1, 2015 at 11:26 pm - Reply

    May God have Mercy on their souls for causing so much pain for printed paper

  93. Mary Pat April 2, 2015 at 3:07 pm - Reply

    Psalm 94 from Holy Bible, the Word of God: “O Lord, the God who avenges, O God who avenges, shine forth. Rise up, O Judge of the earth, pay back to the proud what they deserve. How long will the wicked, O Lord, how long will the wicked be jubilant? They pour out arrogant words; all the evil doers are full of boasting. They crush your people, O Lord; they oppress your inheritance. They slay the widow and the alien, they murder the fatherless. They say, “The Lord does not see”, the God of Jacob pays no heed.” TAKE HEED YOU SENSELESS ONES, among the people, YOU FOOLS when will you become wise? Does he who implanted the ear not hear? Does he who formed the eye not see? Does he who disciplines nations NOT PUNISH? Does he who teaches man lack knowledge? The Lord knows the thoughts of man; he knows that they are futile. Blessed is the man you discipline O Lord, the man you teach from your law; YOU GRANT HIM RELIEF FROM DAYS OF TROUBLE, TIL A PIT IS DUG FOR THE WICKED. For the Lord will not reject his people; he will never forsake his inheritance. JUDGMENT WILL AGAIN BE FOUNDED ON RIGHTEOUSNESS, and all the upright in heart will follow it (TAKE HEED JUDGE GOODWIN).



    Unless the Lord had given me help, I would soon have dwelt in the silence of death. When I said “my foot is slipping” your love, O Lord supported me (praise be to God for his strength and comfort). When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought joy to my soul.


    They band together against the righteous and condemn the innocent to death.



    • Tammy ( KY) April 11, 2015 at 11:43 pm - Reply

      Amen!!!!!….Hallelujah…… Most well said. Holy Father, Allow the Truth to Rain….If the Lord is with me, than whom shall stand against me? Glory be to God…

  94. Cindy Walraven April 3, 2015 at 8:10 am - Reply

    Dear Judge Goodwin,

    I am writing to you about the Thousands of mesh cases you are looking over,

    Please Help stop the suffering that mesh and these companies are doing to us!!

    There are so many of us out there everyday fighting to get some normalcy back in our lives from the mesh. To have just one day where we could be pain free from the effects would be a true blessing. There are thousands of us effected by mesh that have set up Facebook pages to share our experiences and help support one another. There are women out there that have died from the side effects of these mesh implants. You could just save your sister, mother, wife or friends life by listening to our stories. I don’t understand how consciously you can continue to ignore patients that have been implanted with these devices and keep letting this situation drag on any longer. I had a hysterectomy when I was about 29 due to endometriosis they did however leave my ovaries. In 2009 and before I was having problems with urinary stress incontinence. So I began seeing a urogynecologist and specialist in female reconstruction. He ran test and suggested that I get a Sling on my bladder for prolapse and a sling on my uretha for my urinary stress incontinence. In 2010/2011 I started having issues with the mesh that was put. I begin having severe pain with intercourse and bleeding. I returned to original surgeon in omaha. He was rude and very rough he walked in examined me and told me that there was a stitch coming through said i needed surgery and his team would schedule it and walked out. We decided that I should go for a second opinion. Which I did I have two doctors tell me it was mesh erosion through my vaginal wall and 3 say it was not. Lucky for me I went with the two that said mesh erosion. I then scheduled a revision surgery. Before a year the mesh was eroding again. and this time not just my vaginal wall but into my bladder also. So I then had another revision. Within a few months I erosion again. This time I elected to have it completely removed if possible, but since tissue grows around it and it embeds itself it is almost completely impossible to have it removed. My doctor feels as if she got about 90 to 95 present of it. I was also having a lot of issues with UTI’s. Which would go and come back. After my last surgery my uti’s seem to go but then coming back with a vengeance. I know have a uti almost continuously in my last visit to the doctor he told me that if they keep having problems trying to get my infections clear I am facing being hospitalized for IV antibiotics. Not only that I am more incontinence now then It was before the surgery to fix it and I can no longer work. Through all this I have severe pain in my abdomen due to the mesh and the surgeries from it. I have a lot of scar tissue and adhesions. I also developed Small fiber peripheral neuropathy. I have such severe pain that I am on an enormous amount of pain and nerve medication which affect my ability to think and make me feel as if I am in outer space somewhere.

    Thank you, Cindy Walraven

    I am attaching this so that we can all pray that Judge Goodwin will hear us!! I am not sure where this prayer came from but it is so perfect to all the suffers from this mesh.

    Dear Lord,

    I am speaking with you today from the bottom of my heart. There are so many of us out there men and women that have suffered in pain from the mesh monster they have implanted in us. Please lord have mercy on all of us, to help stop the pain and suffering we are all going through. Help us to see where the light is to relieve our pain. Guide those that are suffering to the right doctor the right person that will help with there pain and will offer the compassion and understanding that we all need so desperately to help us heal.  So many are suffering from the side effects this mesh has caused pain, agony,  struggling relationships with our spouses, intimacy with our partners, divorce, finical hardships, loss of youth, parenthood, our children, relationships with our families.  This list could go on and on but Lord I think you are getting the point here.  Many of us are just trying to make it day to day. We all so need your compassion and understanding to help improve our daily lives and get back what this mesh has taken from us.

    Thank You Lord for hearing our prayers 

     In his most precious name   


  95. anonymous April 3, 2015 at 9:46 am - Reply

    Sorry Jerry and Cindy for what you are going through. But I hate to tell you it is hopeless. Judge Goodwin cant do anything. If he could I would have to believe he would have already done it. My company is AMS and they have promised to settle. This started over a year ago and nothing has happened in my case. I have friends who are AMS victims and they have heard nothing. This is a stall tactic from AMS and its sad that Judge Goodwin is letting them get away with it.

    Even trama hospitals help the more severely hurt first. But as I sit here I can’t even more forward. I am trapped in time so to speak. But what makes me beyond mad is the fact that Judge Goodwin could I think put a stop to this nonsense and tell AMS, J&J, Bard, and all the others to stop this and make good settlements to these people, but he wont! This so called committee they have is a joke!! They get to decide for me how much my injuries are worth. GO TO HELL!!!!

    You know nothing about me or what my loses are. Its only a couple of big firms trying to get a settlement for their clients and to hell with the rest of us. From the committee to the attorneys to the judge I say you are all playing with lives that don’t have the time to play games I have lost everything and will lose my house soon. ENOUGH IS ENOUGHT JUDGE GOODWIN. IF YOU CANT HANDLE THE DECISION TO MAKE THIS HAPPEN FIND SOMEONE WHO CAN!! You know what they say about 500,000 attorneys at the bottom of the sea—a good start! I have tried to be patient and understanding but each day I sit and wait on something that is never going to happen for me. I am hurt bad and I have had many more surgeries than you Cindy. I appreciate you hope. I have spent many hours on my knees praying to God for a miracle in my life and my case. And yet here comes another year of just waiting. The women who got to go to court had many of the same injuries that I had but I am suppose to take a small fraction of what they got. Ya right. My life means nothing to Judge Goodwin, the attorneys, the doctors. I fear that I will die soon. But at least my family may get some money from these blood suckers then. I can’t keep living like this Judge Goodwin!! ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING? MAKE AMS STEP UP JUST LIKE THE REST OF THE COMPANIES. With out this I can not have the medical care I desperately need. I cant get the in-home care that I need. I might as well be speaking to the ground when it comes to Judge Goodwin and AMS. Because they seem to have this idea that all of this can be settled and it can’t. I have heard that only 5% of women are severely hurt. Give me a break!! I have heard countless women who have nothing but TORMENT IN THIER LIVES!! Money to do alternative treatments for help through the pain are expensive so forget that.


  96. Terri April 4, 2015 at 9:35 pm - Reply

    May God Bless us all. However there is a light at the end of the tunnel. In 2008 I had my original surgery-revised in 2009. No Doctor in Maine is wiling nor listens to my complaints when everything is on paper. Judge Goodwin is our man to resolve these cases and encourage manufacturers to settle Good job with AMS!! I’m a client of this company. They have set aside $830 million to settle cases however that figure may go up based on these bellweather cases heard every day. I have one of the best attorney firms I could ever ask for because AMS has set out to make significent settlements the attorney’s will work on cases that have all the paper medical information A special Master has been assigned, a lien person has also been put in place. Just signed paper’s to accept being in the MDLS case people think all the money is divided my the thousands of woman how ever it is based on an individual case based on injuries caused. They also have a point system that puts your case in the right stack. I had my surgery for incontenance however I have had several issues related to the mesh:

    1) 2 defective devices

    2) cycstitis

    3) Septis

    4) several bacteria, bladder, vaginal infections even with being on an antibiotic

    5) Midline cyctocele prolapse

    6) Midline rectocele prolapse

    7) Dropped bladder

    8) Unable to have intimacy

    9) Bleeding

    10)Blood in urine

    11) Over active bladder

    12) Constipation

    13) At times unable to drive

    14) Chronic Pain syndome


    16) The 2 defective products can be felt with an internal

    17) Hypermobility Urethral-drop below pelvic floor

    18) Blood in stools

    19) Depression

    20) Severe pelvic pain

    Been put in pain management

    I have been told that money disbursements will start in November 2015. So be an advocate for yourself, get all medical reports new diagnosed, meds list………..the sooner you get all information in the better your case will strengthen.

    AMS: damages you could recieve: Cost of revision, Pain/Suffering, lost wages, Emotional distress, unable to have intimacy, med, surgical, hospital cost for future!!

    • anonymous April 4, 2015 at 10:22 pm - Reply

      This is all news to me about AMS and they are my company. I am severely injured and have been through several surgeries and face more. Are you sure about the November time frame. Who told you this?? I would love it if AMS finally did settle.

    • Tonya October 16, 2015 at 3:19 am - Reply

      That’s some great advice Terri. I can so relate to every single pain you listed. What was the absolute scariest part of all this for me was when I first got my surgery and after six weeks, I still felt like I just woke up from surgery and I had nobody to listen to me because it was not known at the time. I had no support group and i was in so much pain that i was going to and from the ER, to lawyers in three states to take my case, it was exhausting and so very s ary. I had to sell everything i owned and move out of the town i lived in so i could get doctors to treat me and everywhere i went the doctors were lying and saying l seemed to be dping good when i was not. I cried and cried whn i read all the mean stuff the doctors wrote in their reports about me. One doctor said i had a belly button pierci g and breast implants and he thought i was just trying to get a tummy tuck or something along those lines…..Making me out to be the bad person. One time a nurse came intpo the examining room and gave me a bag full of sample pills to take home with me, but they would not write me a script for pain because that would mean l was not getting better.

      Seriously, I wrote letters to the President of the United States….Bush at the time and my girlfriend JoAnne laughed at me…I also sent letters to every person in Congress and the FDA and anybody I could. That’s how I learned how to cut and paste emails. I do believe that if we do not get any hope of a settlement, that the waters will get very rough this next year! The people are sick and in pain and losing all hope and tired of keeping their mouths shut like the lawyers told me to do….bla bla bla… I have nothing! I lost everything and most importantly my health and I’m supposed to sit quietly and not say anything? Is it possible to change lawyers? I’ve been wondering about a JNJ conspiracy to buy law firms and let the lawsuits lay on their desk until its too late to do anything. It’s just been too many years and nothing is getting done. You know the most ironic because thing about this is? I was dating a circuit judge when I got my surgery. But that ended the relationship! He actually guided me through to make sure I got my medical records etc….at the time. Those records just layed in the back of my closet and got all dusty after I lost my lawsuit against the doctor that did the surgery and the hospital, but because I was writing a book, I would not get rid of them. And low and behold this commercial starts coming on TV and everybody starts texting me lawyer numbers and now all of a sudden I’m popular again. At least a few months….or maybe a year or two but when no settlement came my way, everybody seemed to start distancing themselves from me again….lm now turning back into a liability friend instead of being an asset! I never looked at friendship like that before but it is so true. Your worth is how much money you have in society from the way I’ve seen it. And you know what? Priorities change. I had a four bedroom home and a couple businesses and went on many holidays to the beach for weeks at a time in my RV. I had many bedrooms! And now all I want is just one clean room to sleep in so I can feel human again and start trying to get some kind of life back worth living! Like I need to feel like I made a difference and I did what God put me on this earth to do. If God has tested me to change my life, then that has happened. I think humans can only experience happiness to the extent that they have endured sadness and pain. Look at rich people who have many bedrooms and mansions and how depressed and sad they are…empty inside in their big houses ànd pain free but emotionally broken. If here is no pain pill for that but I hear alcohol helps!

    • Rosa November 12, 2015 at 11:23 pm - Reply

      I had the mesh surgery in 1997 so I’ve got some advice that can hopefully help some victims of this horrible defective medical device…… I had the bladder mesh surgery! I went through a couple years of therapy where the doctors tried to stretch my bladder and that was some horrific pain that did not help! So I do not recommend that therapy!!!! Also, if I could go back before trying to remove the mesh, I would and just try to live with pain meds to try to help me control the pain. Since I’ve had several surgeries to remove the mesh, I just kept getting more nerve damage and chronic adhesions instead of relief. My pain went from a level 5 during the day to a level 7-8 at night before any surgeries or therapies.

      I would cry and cry at night sitting on the toliet feeling like I have to pee so bad (like getting caught in a traffic jam after drinking a six pack of beer feeling) but nothing would come out and I had to try to get some sleep, so I could open up my businesses and work my 12 hr shift. There where dozens of employees depending on me to keep the business open so they could have a job to take care of their families!. I had to try to downplay my own pain and suffering so I could keep food on the table of my employees. I was also very afraid that they would start gossip about me losing the business and them jumping ship and quitting and that was exactly what happened! So… I have even more work to do with less employees and higher bills to pay! I forgot the 1st rule of owning a business’s: Always pay yourself first!!! I would not pay myself many times because I wanted my people to be taken care of….that’s just who I am! However, the time finally came when I couldn’t keep in the black and the ship did sink! I had been a successful business woman for over 20 years to get where I was and within a year, after getting a simple procedure, I’m closing down my business and my husband wanted a divorce! Ha-ha! He just wanted the woman who was a good hard worker with a good reputation. He didn’t want a broken woman who could no longer have sexual relations with him.

      What if it were a man who this happened to and he lost everything and had nothing to offer and I couldn’t even be intimate with him? Would I divorce him? Hum…..”Yep! I’m pretty sure I would trade him in too and get a healthy hard working man who wouldn’t be bitching about his pain all the time too!” Having this mindset is the only reason I don’t hate my ex husband for not wanting to be with me. I would rather just disappear and not look back! I so not want people talking about poor pitiful me! I guess I just have too much pride to let people see me fail. I live in the same town as he does but I try not to go anywhere anybody will be because I am ashamed of how much weight I have gained and the old clothes I now have to wear with my home hair cuts and no makeup. I can’t sleep at night because its the worst so I go to Walmart then and do my shopping if I need to buy food or household stuff.

      Every once in a while I will run into one of my ex husband buddies and I run the other way! About a week ago I ran right into his best friend getting medicine at Walmart! I took off as fast as I could and guess what? He ran me down to get a look at the loser! It hurts me to be stereotypes as handicapped, disabled, indigent!!!! What horrible words! I’m very smart and I’m a good human being. But I will never feel like I’m as food as other women. I may look as good or a lot be5ter than most but I have secrets. I have chronic pain and I try to fit in and act like I’m just as good as the next woman, but deep down I know that I could never fight for a man even if I fell in love with him because he would eventually figure out that sex hurts me and unless he is into inflicting pain, he will leave me for someone who can enjoy sex. I think losing that part of my life hurt me more than losing my businesses and marriage. I could always start over is my “old motto!” But now I can’t start over.

      I can’t get up everyday like other women. I am on a medicated schedule. I take night time meds to go to sleep, meds in the afternoon, and my morning meds to break the sleep cycle. I have to sleep 12 hrs a day to be able to have enough energy to even get dressed. I am up and down all night…. Sometimes, I look at the clock and I’m up every 30 minutes and I may or may not be able to pee…..but it helps my pain some just to get up a minute and lay back down.

      I tried to sue the DR that gave me the surgery but it got thrown out of court.

      OK, back to more advice to some of you ladies. Please don’t run out there and let these money hungry doctors pick off your organs, I.e., don’t get a hysterectomy or let them take your ovaries by saying that you must have endometriosis and then they talk you into a surgery and steal other body organs and do not even look at your bladder. They are waiting for the statue of limitations to run out on the bladder surgery while being vultures and stealing organs. Then, they will want to send you back to the urologist you were recommended to him by and he will then so surgery on you to remove the mesh. I was told that it was like hot sticky gum and it took two doctors hours of trying to clean off the mesh! OMG!

      The problem with having abdominal pain is you are a sitting duck for a vulture who knows full well you don’t have endometriosis and somewhere along the way he asked you if its OK to give you a hysterectomy or take your ovaries if he thinks they need to go….because that’s what he wants you to do….trust him so he can pluck your good organs! Beware!!!!!!!

      Im thinking the DR thought since I couldn’t have comfortable intercourse, he was doing me a favor!!! Well, it was not a favor. Now I have to take hormones and my bones and thinning and I have to take meds for that too.

      If I could go back of course I would not have that “simple” procedure, but what I want to do is help those of you that had it done and what to do next……Hopefully, I’ve helped some of you understand that you have to be very proactive in your medical care and don’t just trust anything a DR says!!!!!!!

      For me, having multiple surgeries was not the way to go….I am way worse off after having surgeries to try to remove it. I know. I know!!!! If you don’t agree to let the DR help you by giving you surgery, he won’t give you any pain pills and you can’t prove what is inside your body, but guess what? You can prove your bladder is hurting you by having that test where they run a camera up there and look around. So don’t think you have to go have another surgery to remove the mesh to be out of pain……because honestly, I’ve never heard of anyone who has had a mesh removal who was better off…..

      And for you who have already took that leap of faith and know what I’m saying is true……Just stop having surgeries and give yourself a good 4-6 years to see if the belly swelling goes down, etc…..and if the pain gets a little better……I think I have gotten a little better but by far not as good as before I tried to have the mesh removed. I wish I had just left it in there and went on pain management but I was dumb when it came to pain. Before I got this horrible pain, I thought all pain was preventable and doctors walked on water!!!!! Seriously, I’m not the only person who thought that way….my family has no idea how much I hurt and all I hear is, “You need probiotics, vitamins, exercise, …..and get off all those medicines!!!!” That starts a horrible argument every time. I didn’t know my family was so dumb! Actually, they are like a lot of people out there….even pharmacist… I see it in their eyes: They judge me over all the medications l have to take, too. My mom is in better shape than I am but she expects me to wait on her hand and foot. She works out at the GYM and goes to church and sews onn the side for extra cash! I can’t do what she can do and I’m really worried that she is thinking if I were to die she would have to bury me.

      I’m really lucky I have such a healthy mom. I would hate that I pass before her and she have to live with how she treated me trying to talk me into health. She thinks if I went to her church, and they had prayer meetings, I could get cured….like a miracle! If only I thought that were true! I’m a believer in God but I am also a realist! I know God has blessed some people out there to be caregivers/gatekeepers and help take care of those who have been wronged. I believe that’s a very magnanimous position to be in and God expects man to make miracles happen and so the right thing! Amen.

  97. anonymous April 13, 2015 at 10:53 am - Reply

    Terri, if I am understanding you correctly you stated that you just signed the papers to be in the MDL’s. I am happy for you that you are all excited and expecting this big payment in November. Ok so lets get real. AMS is not going to settle all the cases in November. I have been doing this for many years and I hear these promises all the time and still not one person has come to me and said lets make a deal. No one has contacted me and said AMS wants to settle this once and for all. I am told because of my injuries I may have to wait until all the little claims are paid first. I have a fantastic attorney who I believe is one of the best. But until Judge Goodwin does something we are at a stale mate. I have heard about this special Master, I guess this person is suppose to making sure things go correctly but for who. US get real. He who has the money makes the rules. I try to believe that a miracle will happen soon but I see no signs of this. I had hoped that Judge Goodwin would have done something by now but no he wont. I am one of many who have been hurt badly. I have been told that the ones who are not hurt badly are getting settlements. Now when you talk about 830 million it sounds like a lot. But many of us deserve at least a million dollar settlement. So that means in that case only 830 people would be helped. So lets say that we only get half of what we expect or pray for then 1660 people get help. I have heard that AMS has like 20 thousand or more claims. So what do the rest of us do? Go with out anything. Lets just say that AMS has 20,000 cases, if you divide 830 million between 20,000 cases that is 41,500.00 per person. Now you take the attorney fees, the medical cost and all that we have lost and that is 000000000 ZERO—– NEGITIVE!!!! SORRY DONT MEAN TO RAIN ON YOUR PARTY BUT IF YOU LOOK AT IT, WE WILL BE PAID NOTHING TO HELP US REGAIN OUR LIVES TERRI!!!

    Perhaps that is ok to you but to many of us it is a slap in the face and I for one will die before I sign such a ridiculous settlement. If you attorney is promising you something different right now I would ask around, no disrespect meant. Until AMS watches and does what the juries have spoken loud and clear what we deserve for our injuries I will not settle. I will take them to court in my state. Many people have what you have and more. I agree that we should have all our medical records and every thing documented that we have lost. I hope and pray that they pay me for what I have lost. But I am not reassured this will happen until the money is in my hand. I have had promise after promise that settlements will come soon. I just believe that any settlements that come will come to little to late for to many of us.

    • Tonya October 16, 2015 at 1:52 am - Reply

      My sister is my biggest advocate ànd she has to keep telling me that if I think negative then negative things will happen…bla bla bla….yea, that’s coming from someone who is not in pain and who has a job working 12 hours a day 6 days a week. Where I still need to be at in my life “working!” I just don’t think I have that much time left on this earth. I need some peace now!!!! I’m the one who has lost my health …. Not my family. If I die before this settles, my legal team told me to get a living will and my family will get my settlement. Now from the way I see it, I need the money. They have jobs and they have not really stepped up to the plate to make my life comfortable. Don’t get me wrong, at least my sister lets me sleep in her sofa and turn her living room into a hospital room with my potty chair, medicines all over the coffee table for this pain and that pain ànd almost every day my mom or my sister comes to me with vitamins and herbs trying to heal me!!!! That annoys me so much!!!! My doctor told me not to take any vitamins or herbs because it may hurt me because of the medicines I have to take. They are so green, I can’t use bleach in the house. Good for them but I have a serious chronic pain condition that they do not understand. They think its my medicine causing me pain and I should get off all of it! That would be awesome if I could bvut until they start doing bladder transplants I’m pretty much screwed! Why do some people think all pain can be fixed!!! If that were the case we would all have done that already. All I can do is control my pain the best that I can.

      What I need is a clean room to call my own to deal with my chronic pain. If you have a husband supporting you, please keep him! My ex got in a horrible fight with me and said,”Why does God send me sick women?” I knew right then and there that I was going to free him so he could find love again and have a chance at being happy. But looking back now, after I have slept in my car using a tea pitcher to pee in 10-20 times a night, ànd the other scary stuff that goes along with being homeless, I should have made him stay with me until I had a home. I have moved at least 12 times since I’ve been disabled and even slept in my storage building a couple of nights during the winter. So, who should I leave my BIG settlement to? I need my money! Yes, I can prove my case! I have doctor records from First Med before my bladder surgery saying that I was healthy and had no sign of any bladder problems etc I only went to the “doc in the box” for antibiotics when I got a lung infection or a splinter in my hand. Less than a year later, l had bladder surgery ànd all went to hell! It plainly states I have no bladder problems about 8 months before I got the mesh surgery. Now, I’m not saying that I didn’t need some pads for a little leaking but by far not a life altering downward spiral surgery from hell! I don’t feel like my family or friends need what little settlement I’m entitled to. I need it and I need it NOW!!!! I have every doctor report, every lawyer report, every surgery report, every day in pain report at 3 am crying and pacing the floor and going to the ER report and every detail of what happened to me along the way. If anybody out there doesn’t have this kind d of proof, you need to get it together for your lawyer and always keep copies of everything!l don’t know how many thousands of lawsuits are out there but prob half of them don’t have the documentation to prove their case because after 10 years in Alabama, the hospitals and doctors don’t have to give them to you. The only reason I ended up with all the documentation was because I got it right away for my medical malpractice lawsuit which got thrown out of court because they decided that it was not the doctor that caused my pain but the mesh product! So I have proved my case. Now settle with me before I write a tell all book and describe every horrible detail and show my medical records and lawsuit paperwork!!!!

  98. Mesh Nightmare April 29, 2015 at 10:35 pm - Reply

    ALL mesh manufacturers except Coloplast and Johnson & Johnson’s Ethicon have entered into settlements.

  99. Barbara May 1, 2015 at 3:09 pm - Reply

    It has been 7years for mesh first by J&J left me stranded in pain having flown to see my precious grandchildren. Had to drive 300 miles 4 different times for the only MD who would remove Mesh. AFTER I was under sedation the Doctor came in and said “My wife(was to assist him) went to New Orleans for Mardi Gras and I have to do this alone AND not sure what I can use to keep you from going home with an upside down Vagina” .SERIOUSLY? Did he just want the $$$?. Is everything about money? Without telling me he removed J&J mesh and replaced with Boston Scientific.He got paid a ton of money with my insurance.Justice system is broken. There is a video I watched about J&J. The President of the company saying over and over..”we don’t have to get products 100%, if you get it 75% GO! i Have lost faith in “Justice” and government. USA! WE SUCK. God help us.

  100. debbie May 27, 2015 at 4:01 pm - Reply

    FBI probing what J&J knew about uterine surgery device,,,they also know PLASTIC PROP mesh should not be inserted or used in human’s bodys!!!!

  101. Josie June 9, 2015 at 10:34 am - Reply

    Wow where do I start….. I’m pass the embarrassing part of urinating on myself while driving or in the stores. Pain is apart of my daily life. Read this….. while in the store I look over at my son and he knew right away that I had to get to a restroom. By the time we got there someone was using the facilities. My 20 year old son says I got you mom, and grabbed a mop bucket for me. The look in his eyes I will never forget. The person in the restroom came out in the middle of me urinating. No-one should ever go through this. I’m 47 and wearing depends is heartbreaking and useless when the amount of urine overflows. I can write a book about the life of someone who came in counter with a bladder mesh.

    • Jane Akre June 9, 2015 at 10:52 am - Reply

      I’m so sorry. You story is heartbreaking. Can you find non mesh doc in your area to treat you successfully?

    • Betty June 9, 2015 at 11:58 am - Reply

      In same boat except it was my 5yr old grandson and I didn’t even know I’d soaked through and hes like grams you are wet on yr bottom. I was so a shamed that I left the store and he felt so bad for telling me but he says grams I still wet my pants so it ok if you have accidents. I about died that day.

  102. Tonya October 16, 2015 at 12:01 am - Reply

    Our country is supposed to be civilized and justice for all!!!! For real! I don’t see that at all from having my “simple” mesh bladder suspension surgery way back in 1997 April the 7th. I will never forget the day! It was when I lost everything! I loved my life before going to have a pap smear and then talked into a “simple” bladder procedure. I was one of the first frontier bladder surgeries to get this horrible procedure. I cried in horrible pain every night not knowing whether to call 911 or just drive to the ER. I spent four year or more in the ER and had multiple surgeries to remove the mesh. But nothing could be done to help me until the statue of limitations ran out. It is inhumane for human beings to be treated so cruel. Animals get better care….All in the name of a $$$$. Nobody wanted to take the blame for my pain. I tried to sue the ER and the hospital but it got thrown out of court! On well, the lawyers and doctors all in bed together is the way I felt.

    I was cut down in the middle of my career. I had to get a divorce and lose my hair salons. I had to go on disability. They didn’t know what to call my unknown pain that just happened to start after my “simple” bladder surgery so they called it a symadofoam syndrome…sic.]

    • Tonya October 16, 2015 at 12:49 am - Reply

      Don’t really know why I got cut off…but probably just accidentally hit the send button. Anyway, back to the topic. I had the world at my fingertips or so I thought. I used to say,”Every day is Christmas and Every night is New Years Eve!” That was before I had the simple bladder surgery that I honestly do t even think I really needed now looking back. I would give anything to go back and just wear pampers. Chronic pain is no joke! It hurts not only the victim but the entire family that gets drained from caregiving and then the victim “me” has to couch surf from friend to family to my car in the winter to the shelter to live. How sad it is…..seriously, I know from experience that these women are telling the truth!!! I know its painful. I have had many unnecessary surgeries trying to fix “remove” the mesh. When I read these stories, it sounds like my life story. I could have written most of them. It’s crazy that I did nothing wrong but I was just a victim of a horrible experiment gone wrong. I did not sign up for this! I did not know mesh was being used. I trusted the doctor and the FDA or whoever oversides this mesh stuff to take care of me and have my back….I needed protection from a defective product!

      If we were a man and had my penis cut off and couldn’t use it anymore without chronic pain, how much would that be worth? How much is losing my home and being homeless and disrespected by everybody l know because they can not handle my crying from chronic pain every morning! Even my mother has turned against me and wants me to move out of my sister house where I sleep on the sofa for over 6 months. I couldn’t live in low income housing because it is all gang operated. They broke in my apt and poisoned me with meth residue when I called the police on them for making and dealing drugs and vandalizing my car. Did they make them move out? NO!!!!! I ran for my life! Just another chapter in my journals on how I got screwed over by JNJ making a dollar and throwing all us under the bus while they are flying high! It takes guts to do the right thing in life. If I were a judge, I wouldn’t be able to sleep at night knowing how many crazy hurting people are out there who need me to help them get their homes back and at least wake up hurting in peace in the mornings instead of being woken up by the first one up and not being able to go to sleep until the last one goes to bed. I used to model and I was a jet setter….flying in private planes to the Keys or to Vegas ànd all over the US. At least I did have a nice life a long time ago….I would venture to say most of the women victims on this blog have never lived a wonderful life as I had before my downfall from Grace into the depths of chronic pain hell. Which makes me wonder how can someone miss what they never had? And how it feels to have had a wonderful jet setting lifestyle only to become a cripple homeless victim who has no friends anymore. I’m serious when I say this, my jet setting friends don’t give two cents about me. I am as good as dead in their eyes. I have nothing to offer anymore. I’m never invited to go on a cruise, not even invited to go out to eat with my family…they secretly make plans to go have a steak dinner without me. It’s so sad! I used to be the one giving to my family and friends. Invitations to fly to New Orleans on a private plane I rented to take my boyfriend for the weekend….l can’t eat at McDonalds now. I have a car but I can only put $20 a month in it after I make the payment and insurance. I’m 59 years old now. I’ve been suffering many more years than most of the women on here. Let me tell you something: it never gets better when you can not work and you can not ever get out of pain. It’s like a cruel movie like the Groundhog Day….everyday is always the same…..waking up crying from a pain breakthrough trying to not let anyone hear me. If only I had a clean room to sleep in and not have to wake up with my momma hearing me cry every morning and her try to comfort me only to make me even more upset and then I say something mean to my momma and she stays in her room all day every day and I cry because if anything ever happens to my momma and I treated her so bad or something happens. To me and she had to live the rest of her life wondering if she could have been nicer to me or could have helped me more….its just a sad situation when life is not fair. I do have journals documenting every detail of my journey and as soon as this is over and if I don’t get compensation…. I will have my journals put into print. I know I’m rambling and have horrible penmanship here but its very uncomfortable typing this.I’m having a pain breakthrough…….

    • Tonya October 24, 2015 at 12:01 pm - Reply

      I just read over my comment. I tried to sue the doctor and hospital but it got thrown out of court… couldn’t prove doctor did anything intentional…..The doctor that performed my surgery had to move out of this town and start over. I searched for him, and he is still a doctor practicing as a urogynocologist at UAB. He got a fresh start. We need our fresh starts too!!!

  103. Maria Benedetto October 19, 2015 at 7:27 pm - Reply

    I too am a victim , I had a Mesh Bladder Sling implanted in 2007, had 3 Revision Surgeries between 2010 and 2011, a Hysterectomy in 2012 and just recently The Medtronic InterStim in July of 2015. I don’t know if I need to have the Mesh removed, and I don’t know if I want a to find out. Is there anyone who can honestly tell me, and besides, I am so tired of appointments, tests and Doctors. Sometimes I get angry, sometimes frustrated, sometimes depressed and sometimes I just don’t care anymore. And then I see my 2 year old Grandson, who wants me to pick him up and act like I’m a horse, he says; Gallopa, Gallopa as they say in the video called Baby Moves that we watch together. But I’m afraid the more I pick him up, the more my Bladder will drop. Try explaining that to a 2 year old, who brings you so much joy. As I sit here writing , I have a sharp stabbing pain in my vagina ,I can’t sit comfortably but that’s nothing new. I really want to tell all of my story,in hopes that someone would listen, it becomes oh so tiring when you try and tell someone exactly what you’re going through and no one seems to listen or even care. Doctors, family, friends, signification others. I happen to be checking for updates on this Mesh Claim and fell upon the Open Letter to Judge Goodwin. After reading the letter, then reading some of the replies, it appeared to me that it sounded like I was telling my story. Each reply had a part of my story in their story, I just want to say that I hope and pray that each one of us is heard, if not by Attorneys, Manufacturers , Doctors , Families, Friends or Judge Goodwin ,at least we know that we can be here for each other if needed. I do know that we will be heard by someone ,who to me by far is all I need to hear me, and that is THE LORD. May GOD BLESS all of us. Amen

    • anonymous October 20, 2015 at 2:15 pm - Reply

      Dear Maria, I am the mesh victim that wrote the open letter to judge Goodwin and there’s so much more that I could have put it in there I could have told him about all the surgeries I’ve had the constant pain and nerve damage that I have now it just seems to never end but the sad thing about it is nothing has changed because of a letter to judge Goodwin. I realized that Judge Goodwin cannot step out and help the plaintiff or the defensive. But it sure would be nice if the attorneys would listen and say no settlement without loss of wages no settlement without being compensated if you are permanently disabled and all past and future medical bills must be paid see that’s the thing if we would get compensated somewhat for all we’ve been through it might make the rest of our life a little easier. It might give us a chance to seek out other medical care that would help us. But from what I’ve been told and what I’ve experienced the settlements will not even begin to cover that. I’ve been told that thousands and thousands of women are accepting settlements. And that’s fine for them that have not been hurt so bad that they would rather take 40 or 50 or $60,000 and go on there merry way. I’ve lost the joy of life. I have problems putting food on the table and end up going to food banks. I’ve had to beg for money from relatives just to be able to hang on to my house pay my electricity pay my heat. My life before mesh, physically was perfect I never had any issues. My life before mesh was that I was a hard working person making very good money and looking forward to retirement and our golden years and having all the things we planned on. But hear me judge goodwin I have lost all of that I have not even the faintest possibility that I would live my life out the way it should have been all because of mesh!!!! I had no problems before mesh. So explain to me why my company should not pay me for making me disabled and destroying my life. Thousands and thousands of women have said that the implantation of mesh for prolapse or SUI goes to the place where there are nerves in the muscles and it can hit them and cause scar tissue and damage them. To me that is a defective design. If it is placed where there are nerves that can be hit and damaged then that is not a good design. Any moron off the street can understand that and yet we have these attorneys and doctors and judges with college degrees that can’t see this. I have 80 year old grandparents that understand it and yet these guys are fighting that is not defective! If you design something to go whete there are nerves and muscles that can be hurt then it’s defective.

      My story is not over yet. Unless I’m killed in a car accident or a massive heart attack or something like that mesh will be the cause of my death. I no longer physically able to do anything and so I sit and wait and wait and wait. I keep praying that there will be a miracle from above and God will put his finger on my settlement. It breaks my heart to see so many women suffer. Yes I am in the 5% of us that have severe injuries but when you take 5% of 100,000 more that’s not a little amount. I do wish judge Goodwin could say these women must be paid back for their wages, the disability, the loss of consortium all past and future medical costs. Even at this point I don’t want punitive damages I don’t want to get rich off of this I want to simply be repaid for what they took from me.

      Jane says judge Goodwin that you always read the comments out here and you’re aware of what’s going on so I beg of you judge Goodwin if you’re a man of honor as I hope you are let’s make some stipulations I think if they’ve disabled person a person who was completely healthy before this then the company should pay for lost wages at least for the rest of the person’s life. They should pay for past & future medical cost. In any other situation all of this would come out in court and the person would be paid for what the other person did it to them. But Maria we have been put into a class of people that will suffer the rest of our lives. The only thing I can pray is that they will one day stand before God and have to account for what they did to us. I hope the ones that have lied and hidden things and hurt people knowingly and with no remorse and went forward with it I do hope they will have to be reborn and live the hell that we had to live and know they had to come back and relive it. Sorry this is so long ladies but I’m just so sick of the whole thing. Like I said I wish judge Goodwin cold and would do something but he can’t he’s merely on the bench to make sure that everybody follows the rules and do his job with a little effort I believe as possible to help us women in my personal opinion. If we ever thought things would be made right then we have only been fooling ourselves. We will end up poor broke going to the doctors all the time if you continue to choose to do that and live a miserable life. At least I will. But my joy comes in the morning when the Lord takes me home one day. If he lets me remember anything from this life I will make sure to tell him about all of the women that have been hurt. Until then I will continue to pray for all of us. I will try to let my anger go at the company that hurt me because it’s only hurting me by staying angry. But I do feel defeated. I know that if I went out and hurt somebody knowingly that what I was doing might hurt someone and I did it anyways I could not live with myself. AMS I would be more than glad to go away, you never have to hear from me again but I will not go quietly into the dark. Unless you pay me what I deserve I will see you in court. Not because I’m angry at you but because I want you to stand up and pay the women that have been severely hurt what they deserve. You took my life you deserve to be in prison for the rest of yours but we all know that won’t happen either. I don’t want to make money off you I just want you to pay me for my wages my medical, permanent damage and permanently being disabled and the things that I’ve lost in this life. To all you women out there I can just say pray it won’t make things better but it might give you some hope. For our hope is not in man who is obviously let us all down including judges attorneys doctors sometimes even family but I hope comes in Jesus Christ.

      • Betty October 20, 2015 at 3:52 pm - Reply

        I totally agree with you, but I was disabled before the mesh but I was still able to work part time and play with my grandkids now I’m not able to do either of them as I’m unable to walk or crawl around with them. It hurts to see them get sad when grams can’t play trucks or ride bikes anymore all I want to do is cry. Which I do alot of anyways, my life is a lonely place to be. My dogs don’t get walked anymore or get to play catch it sad as hell.

    • Rosa November 12, 2015 at 11:57 pm - Reply

      I wouldn’t try to remove it if I had to do it over again. It’s not like removing breast implants. When mine was removed, l was told it was very stringy and sticky and two doctors worked for hours and couldn’t get it all……I had several surgeries thinking the DR could cure my pain. I dont know how you feel. Is it constant pain? Then yes have it removed. If it is on and off pain….idk. I’m a lot worse off than I was before any surgeries but I also have to admit—- if the pain had not been so bad, I wouldn’t have had any surgeries to try to remove the mesh. I didn’t know it was very hard to remove and I think all patients should know that it is like hot gum like on a sidewalk that sticks to your shoes….what my doctor said after my first removal surgery. It also takes a few years for a serious bladder surgery to recover at all. By recovering, I mean the swelling will go down in the abdomen but since can’t exercise belly will prob be flabby. I have to keep my weight way down because the fat on my stomach weighs down on my bladder when I’m trying to sleep and that is excruciating pain! My weight goes up and down 20 pounds all the time. When my abdomen hurts really bad, I won’t eat dinner many nights to get rid of the extra weight. Also, I can only sleep on my right side under big time sleeping and pain medications. Another major problem is severe pain from being stopped up. I have been using laxatives, suppositories, and enemas since I had the original mesh surgery because the pressure from constipation pushes against my other organs and OMG!!!! I’ve had to call 911 so many times and when I could drive I would live in the ER not just one but about 5-6 different ones in 2 states…..Hope this helps some! I’m so sorry you have to make this decision. It could go your way or……you could end up on a cath. I had to use one for a couple years. OMG!!! Horrible!!!! God bless you!!!! Take care.

      • Rosa… Thank you for the information, advice and for sharing some more of your story. HORRIBLE is definitely the right word. Sad thing is, I don’t even know if it has to be removed, I just today made an appointment,with yet a new Urologist in hopes on getting some answers as well as RELIEF…!!! I had my monthly Primary Care appointment today, and my Doctor was extremely disturbed over the enlargement of my stomach. I am 5’4 and small framed, my bra is a 34B, I normally wear a size 7/8 jeans and a Medium Shirt.. Everything is the same , except right now I would be best and most comfortable in Maternity Clothes. That explains the DISCOMFORT I feel, only like I’m past my due date by at least a month.. She has scheduled me for a Total Abdomen Ultrasound in hopes of telling her and myself, why it is as large as it is, took more Blood work through examining me, she can say that she doesn’t believe there is anything wrong with Liver, Kidneys, etc. and Blood work thankfully, usually comes back normal every 3 months..She can’t understand what is is happening. So off to new Doctors, more tests and so on. My stomach is not in constant pain, but CONSTANT DISCOMFORT and PRESSURE.. awake , asleep, sitting, standing, walking.. Pain during sex, but so much DISCOMFORT and PRESSURE after sex and the day after, lasting a couple days.. The constant PAIN I do have , is in my vaginia now, I’m assuming from the Lead Wire from InterStim implant, but don’t and won’t know for sure until I see Doctor, I am also thinking about having that removed, which THANK GOD, can be removed without complications. As far as the Mesh, I won’t know until I find a caring, trusting, honest Doctor who will tell me exactly what is happening with it and if it could be the cause of my Bladder issues that I’m still enduring after 8 years and 6 Surgeries…I will keep NewsDesk updated as I find out results and again THANK YOU and GOD BLESS YOU as well, and all us..

  104. Maria October 24, 2015 at 9:13 am - Reply

    Hell Anonymous, I first want to thank you for listening and replying. Your story is not long, it’s actually not long enough. I could write just as much and more as I’m sure you can, like I said, I’m tired, no one listens and I’m actually getting frustrated with myself. I know these manufacturers and the FDA need to start worrying about their products and the men and women that have had their lives destroyed in many ways, instead of worrying about how much money they are in fact going to make from approving and selling these products. I know they need to compensate all of us, I’m positive we are all feeling the hardship that came when we all were implanted with these so called great devices, and we all would like for these trials to be over so that we can at the least have our financial worries somewhet under control. I have to say that being compensated for me, would relieve some of my stressors, so that I can focus more on the serious issues I am yet still have from when this nightmare began in 2007. I would like to be able to find a Doctor who is willing to listen, believe and understand what I’m going through. I would like to find a Doctor who can and will be totally honest in telling me that I need to have this Mesh removed, if in fact it has to be, or at the least correct the problems I am still having. But, that Doctor may be in another State, and I am in no way financially able to travel anywhere. I can’t even survive day to day, and to be in pain and discomfort everyday and night can cause you to give up. Wondering if this device will continue to bring me grief or eventually more serious problems, is so scary. I think not knowing what is happening inside me is scarier then knowing the truth, which I hope I can find out soon. As I said, I can continue to write my story which would be as long , if not longer than yours, but I don’t have the strength or mentality to continue to do so. Stay strong and patient, and pray that our day will come, when we are heard and compensated. Thank you again, and GOD BLESS all of us, even the FDA, the Doctors and the Manufacturers

    • Jane Akre October 25, 2015 at 10:48 pm - Reply


      Where are you located? There may be knowledgeable docs in your area…. please advise

      • Maria October 26, 2015 at 11:28 am - Reply

        Hi Jane, I am in Philadelphia Pennsylvania… Please HELP, I am giving up , day by day, but at the same time I’m getting angry, frustrated, depressed. No one listens, Doctors, family, friends, boyfriend. They think your over-reacting or complaining. I don’t know who to turn to, and I’m getting tired of talking to people who obviously don’t care, or think your crazy. They could never go through what I go through everyday and night. I was in a fire at the age of 12, so I have a high tolerance for pain, so the Doctors and some people say, I guess I do. But this pain and discomfort, I can’t and don’t want it anymore. Like a said my store is in each and everyone else’s story, we are all going through the same pain, in every aspect. I could go on and on but I just want to say… HELP Please HELP ..

    • anonymous October 26, 2015 at 8:48 am - Reply

      Thanks Maria. I will pray for you too:)

  105. A whelok October 26, 2015 at 12:18 am - Reply

    Amen, I wish it was possible to have a fresh start. I’m just looking on my second revision and left to feel that my life is over, everyday I’m left to put the piece’s together just to survive.

  106. Maria October 26, 2015 at 11:48 am - Reply

    Oh and Jane, I really meant, but forgot to say “THANK YOU”, now I know someone is LISTENING and CARES… Besides all of us Mesh Survivors… ❤️❤️❤️.. I can’t tell you how much that means to me..

  107. Jamie November 19, 2015 at 2:47 pm - Reply

    Hi To All

    I have read a lot of the posted stories here and on the other blogs associated with the Mesh, I also read an update on Judge Goodwin stating how he hears the frustrated,out poured cries and that the law firms that are active and working with him are some of the top Attorneys that are & that we must take an active play in our own cases ? I also read that the 18 & today were the start of MDL in Wv South and that there were 8,000 terminated and inactive cases let go? I looked up the Mdl and found all the cases in the states of live in an representation of the Firm that represents it, when it was filed and if it has been terminated or is carrying on.Though there were 19,000 filed cases as i said above 8,000 terminated or inactive. I looked for my firm and my name but to no avail found ? On my pedicular situation I have been sent to a Special Master as one person posted and I really have not heard anything from them as I called three days ago to be proactive asking who,what where,when,how was all this to be presented to the judge,the Csr was very nice took my questions and the main attorney never called me back:( I did however see my attorneys name in the court e-mail so that is my next attempt to see where it stands from here. You can’t back out on the representation and if they offer you a aggregate settlement & you don’t take it, they can try to drop you ? but then you go to your state bar website to see what the law is on that as the judge also stated that they cannot, there are court appointed council members to make sure that you are totally covered from that happening! I do feel that it will happen just don’t know exactly when or how much as I have been told this month about getting a award letter that was in june 15 for Nov ? If I did not have written documentation on that explained in detail on the proceedings than I could say it is a scam of representation,but it is binding on their part for me or I wouldn’t of agreed to it ! This has been the longest, drawn out nightmare of a health condition I could of possibly asked for on top of me having hep c and chronic RA amongst necrosis of my liver,3 decades I have been living in pain and no available successful upon completion treatment. Today it is available for 100% cure & it is thousands not to mention I can’t take any Pain meds because of my liver an Acetophetimon cannot have, advil not good, no Dr will Rx me cuz of it. I have always worked myself even with my disease, since 2005 when I went in for a routine hysterectomy I woke up much to my surprise with this implant, my mother who is a Rn told me, she was outaged at this Dr & said I did not need a hernia hammock inside of me that a small stiche would of sufficed just fine! My job @ the time paid the surgery 35,000 later & then 6wks later it fell out through my vaginal wall,my sig other had it pierce him in his PP 🙁 & hurled me through the room on my back,went back to this dr that is when I should of had it taken out? I also read the disgusting report that they wrote on the revision surgery,just recently on obtaining my records I wanted to puke,I became so nauseated that I wanted to faint. Now 11yrs later 4 revisions and countless Dr’s not to mention the money my insurance paid for last year latest revision 57,000 dollars & the Dr”s were hardley compensated for it & the rest as well 🙁 that was on the market health care on top of it I have not been able to work for so long, I have been hurt from jobs I thought I could handle that were too physical, that wound me up in the Er with compounded injury, I also had a lot of pubic pain under the bone, Sex hurts, I have not completely run my Man away I’m lucky as sin to have him and him stick by my side,because we are not legally married he does not get a shot of no monies for pain & suffering as we are going on 30yrs. I feel so helpless as I’m not working,I’m 55 & jobs are not out there for us,I cannot lift a whole lot and It is so depressing that I cannot contribute to my household like I should and it is all on my mans shoulders he is starting to get rattled from my cage & is telling me to get work that he cannot do it anymore !!! I cannot tell you I cannot loose him it is not fair to either of us,I applied for social security disability as other times & I was told I need vocational Rehabilitation ? Right, at my age I said what can I possibly be careered to do now at my age ? Unbelievable I said I didn’t qualify because I needed to be in a wheel chair before I’m to be able to qualify?

    Something doesn’t give I will also be on the street and all the things I have will be gone soon, I’m going to loose my car here and I have a 22yr old who is struggling I can’t even help her, I have a 32yr old son who has mental disabilities and is in Prison for the last 16yrs and has taken its toll on me.I don’t want to leave the house and get ready,shop,eat,drink,I’m on seroquel to sleep and menopause to go stir crazy,no friends and angry all the time inside,I have been going to church and read my bible and see the calamity that is happening in this world and my crap seems insignificant but it’s not & I’m entitled to this like all of us are,now I have hip pain running into my knee,my brain has stopped talking to my bladder it has been slung so tight that I can not hold any significant amount of urine,tried caths,so miserable and sick n tired of being sick and tired, I hope soon we all hear something I must have faith and try to be positive as I seek in prayer everyday,God says this is the Times Of The Signs & the Signs Of The Times!!!

  108. Jolind November 23, 2015 at 2:13 am - Reply

    I too am in this waiting game. Since I have had this mess put in. Everything has slowly spiraled down hi,, for me. I had a good job at the time and I lost so much time at work form be sick and feeling bad. I have been laid off from two jobs. Just because I couldn’t keep up with the work load. It was only about a month after I returned to my job that my bladder had fallen. I had worked there 4 1/2 years and enjoyed it until I started get sick. Took me 9 months to find another job. When I got another job I got laid off after 4 1/2 month. Lost my apartment and ended up in a homeless shelter. I finally just took a job. Working in a casino. I worked there for 2 years. I hated every day of that job. Was hard to be on my feet all day. When I did see a dr he just acted and treated my like I was a burden to him. I just don’t feel that men understand what it is like to have to walk around feeling their bladder in a place that is should not be. I can’t even describe it to make other understand it. So after 2 years I quit that job. I moved closer to my family and I worked temp jobs until I found a job I like. I was still on my feet but things were done and everyone worked together to get the jobs done. So while I was working there. My X husband committed suicide I just happened to be the one to find him. I went into depression and couldn’t work for a while. Was hard to deal with that and felt guilty about that. Still do, words were said and others not said. Still dealing with that and it has been two years. since then. When I did find another job. I think it may have been to soon only worked there a few months and they kept saying “Some ones life is in your hands.” They were making heart valves. I didn’t want some ones life in my hands. So hearing that all the times stressed my out. Was getting sick with flu like systems and just was ready yet to be there. So then I worked part time in a fast food place. My bills are not part time bills. So they got paid but other things had to be let go. I have sold off almost everything of value that I had. My car just broke down. My teeth need fixing. I haven’t seen my own mother since 2001. I have grand children I can’t go visit and can’t buy birthday or Christmas presents. Yet here we all sit, waiting for help. I don’t know How long I can keep holding on. I am not a person to just throw my hands up and give up. I ask myself will it ever end?? Who can help us?

    • Jane Akre November 23, 2015 at 12:29 pm - Reply

      I’m so sorry…. who is your manufacturer? Do you have a law firm you can communicate with? I hope so.

  109. Jamie November 24, 2015 at 9:47 pm - Reply

    Hello Joline

    I see that you responded after my story that you must of related too? I feel the same way,as you said the waiting game is what it seems to become an as I wrote my story & got no response on the legal aspect of this & had to read on about that these proceedings were just a mesh conference ?,meetings every month they have ? I was going with the assumption that these were being handled and because my implant is a AMS,Sparc,I was told that it would be done by this date of hearings from my representation as I stated in my story,I’m sorry Jolind and cannot tell you enough that it seems like the more we complain the less it is heard.Truth is that it impacts all of us,some more than others that want facts & statistics more than real life emotions & struggling to live day by day trusting that the Law will some way rule in our favor with the compensation we all deserve? I read other news and Jane you posted on the Mass Torts Warehouse where an employee of this texas law firm was hedge funding as a former employee whistle blew on this firm,and how they would, “Borrow as much money as possible; (ii) buy as many television ads and/or faceless clients as possible; (iii) wait on real lawyers somewhere to establish liability against somebody for something; (iv) use those faceless clients to borrow even more money or buy even more cases; (v) hire attorneys to settle the cases for whatever they can get; (vi) take a plump 40% of the settlement from the thousands and thousands of people its lawyers never met or had any interest in meeting; and (vii) lather, rinse, and repeat.” My firm does not let you borrow pre-settlement money as I also found that out later, good for me as the interest was 16-24%, I do feel however that the rest of it has all the same instances of the article I have been going through myself, being told to be patient & not frustrated + having to be reviewed by a third party of a medical panel that they select to determine your rating by severity & all those assumptions that have been written about the ridiculous amounts of monies that are to be offered are out there to discourage you more than we can possibly handle, I did not sign up for this Mess Mesh as I said I woke up from hysterectomy with this poison attached inside of me with no knowledge of its Lion Fish Tentacles that In bed itself into your organs,I wasn’t given a choice or told that I might have needed it & getting educated before hand because the gyno wasn’t educated as well. I asked why the Dr’s are not being held accountable for this as well, I was told there are too many as it is not their fault It’s the manufacture company’s faults/ Yeah not training those Dr’s for what not knowing who is a candidate and who’s not? Stop taking the word of these pharma companies that advertise on T

    I know your pain Jolind I’m sorry that your X took his life that is a terrible way to leave this world & to have any words that were not so good before he did it is even more traumatising than others know I had the same thing happen to me as well my X did the same:( I hope you get some kind of resolution as you did not mention like you were responded with who is your manufacturer? Do you have a law firm you communicate with ? Really,A lot of us do & the biggest complaint I hear is Mis Representation,Transparency,Non Communication,Redderick,disconcern,disconnect,evasive.lengthy,Tiring,Un-responsive and the list goes on.

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