Anonymous: While I'm Still Speaking Out

//Anonymous: While I'm Still Speaking Out

Anonymous: While I'm Still Speaking Out

Why I do this

One thing that is hurting women is the letter they get from Lawyers telling them to not speak.  It is written in a way that the whole world is out to get you and take away your chance of receiving compensation if you say one word.  What is wrong with this is that they do not offer any help to find a doctor or support in the form of someone to speak to, to let this out.  They are victimized again because it is like when someone you love dies.  No one wants to be around you because it makes them uncomfortable, when all you want to do is speak about the person because to you they aren’t really gone.

I’ve been there.  The doors close.  You don’t have friends when someone gets sick.  It’s the same with this. 

I spent weeks trying to prove to my doctor it was the mesh.  She made me defend myself because she let me know I did not know what I was talking about, even after I sent her articles with proof, she accused me of having these problems before surgery.  I couldn’t believe it.  I was a victim again and I cried so much.  I researched and researched trying to get myself help, hampered with the knowledge that I had put everything down on a surgery that had screwed me up.  So finally I searched for a lawyer.  They had shut the doors since the lawsuit in 2008.  No one cared and my search for a lawyer was out of the indignity that I was told I was a liar and stupid.

I finally found one who called me back. 

She is not the lawyer, she is the legal assistant, but she listened to me when I burst into tears and told her that no one cared.  That’s all she did and because of that she will have a friend for life.  That’s how these women feel about me.  They need someone to say it is not in your head.  You are a victim of this.  There is help to get your life back.  I had to find the last part for myself through research and women contacting me and telling me their story.

So now when these women go underground and won’t talk to anyone, I still put up a blog here and there because I know they will research and read, even if they are afraid to speak to me or leave a note.  It isn’t right.  They need mental support through this.

If someone has a gunshot wound and had to have surgery, people would understand the trauma they will go through.  But in our case who cares about the pelvic area.  We are JUST women.  We’ve given birth so what is the big deal.  The big deal is that mesh is stuck to our organs and body parts.  It is difficult to remove and you can bleed to death.  We have families and lives and we don’t want to die because of something we were not told about.  All women know it would be a big deal to have a breast removed, but until this happens to you, you can’t understand that our pelvic and private areas are what defines us as women.  Someone destroyed us but you can’t see it on the outside.  It makes it worse to know that everyone has and will make money from your misery.

That’s why I do this.




By | 2011-12-13T16:14:10+00:00 December 13th, 2011|Op-Ed|3 Comments

About the Author:

I’m National News Editor, Jane Akre and I began Mesh Medical Device News Desk aka Mesh News Desk (MND) in the summer of 2011 just after the Food and Drug Administration issued an explicit warning to the public that complications associated with surgical mesh used for prolapse repair (POP) and incontinence (SUI) are NOT rare! That was the starting point for the litigation you see today and thousands of lawsuits have been filed by women whose lives have been altered, some permanently, by the use of this petroleum-based product.


  1. Kathleen December 14, 2011 at 1:22 am - Reply

    We all need to still communicate and help eachother. Very important to just stick to the facts, matters of public record and get women the help they need. We can’t live in fear, Our experiences are true and we should have nothing to hide. Also for those who need help still, it is available. Don’t give up!!!!

  2. EJH December 14, 2011 at 2:28 pm - Reply

    So true. I know I wouldn’t have had any help without the communication I had with other “meshies”. The lawyers do make you feel that you can’t share with anyone and it is hurting us. Women need to share with each other, and now we’ve got our hands tied behind our backs. I had several Dr.’s deny mesh was an issue. Actually, there was no reason for my terrible pain. NOT TRUE! What day to day torture we live with. There are many that care, but our systems are not set up in our favor. Something definitely needs to change!

  3. Jane Akre December 18, 2011 at 6:24 am - Reply

    I think you’ all have hit the nail on the head as to the purpose of this website- Community, Communication and much needed Change! Shout loudly in unison and put a face on the so-called “Adverse Events”

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